1 00:00:02,467 --> 00:00:04,767 Erica: THE LIFE THAT I'M LIVING IS PATHETIC. 2 00:00:04,767 --> 00:00:09,533 IT'S DISGUSTING, AND I'M GOING TO DIE VERY SOON. 3 00:00:15,200 --> 00:00:17,267 Man: NOT FOR ONE MINUTE THAT I THOUGHT MY LIFE 4 00:00:17,267 --> 00:00:18,567 WOULD END UP LIKE THIS. 5 00:00:18,567 --> 00:00:20,800 OW! MY LEGS! 6 00:00:20,800 --> 00:00:23,567 Ashley: I'M SO FAR GONE. 7 00:00:23,567 --> 00:00:26,300 Woman I ABSOLUTELY NEED HELP, 8 00:00:26,300 --> 00:00:29,233 OR I AM GONNA DIE. 9 00:00:33,133 --> 00:00:35,700 -I CAN'T DO THIS. -I'M RIGHT UNDER YOU. 10 00:00:35,700 --> 00:00:40,033 -[ Crying ] I NEED OVER! -YOU'RE FINE. YOU'RE FINE. 11 00:00:43,633 --> 00:00:45,567 Woman I FEEL LIKE I LET MY KIDS DOWN. 12 00:00:45,567 --> 00:00:47,367 INSTEAD OF ME TAKING CARE OF THEM, 13 00:00:47,367 --> 00:00:49,100 THEY'VE BEEN TAKING CARE OF ME. 14 00:00:49,100 --> 00:00:52,533 IT'S YOU -- YOU ARE THE ONE KILLING HIM. 15 00:00:54,533 --> 00:00:56,967 Erica: I HAVE TO TAKE THIS RISK NOW. 16 00:00:56,967 --> 00:01:00,533 AND I CAN EITHER DIE TRYING OR I CAN JUST DIE IN BED. 17 00:01:03,833 --> 00:01:06,833 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 18 00:01:06,833 --> 00:01:09,867 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 19 00:01:11,867 --> 00:01:14,667 IT'S HARD TO MAKE A CHOICE TO FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE 20 00:01:14,667 --> 00:01:17,467 WHEN YOU'VE GIVEN UP ON IT FOR SO LONG. 21 00:01:17,467 --> 00:01:18,767 AND IT'S EVEN HARDER 22 00:01:18,767 --> 00:01:21,100 WHEN EVERYONE ELSE HAS GIVEN UP ON YOU. 23 00:01:41,733 --> 00:01:45,333 I AM COMPLETELY MISERABLE EVERY DAY. 24 00:01:46,933 --> 00:01:48,700 I FEEL LIKE ANY TIME 25 00:01:48,700 --> 00:01:51,900 THAT I CLOSE MY EYES AND GO TO SLEEP, 26 00:01:51,900 --> 00:01:54,533 I'M NOT GONNA WAKE UP. 27 00:01:54,533 --> 00:01:57,600 AND EVERY TIME THAT I DO WAKE UP, 28 00:01:57,600 --> 00:02:01,800 I'M JUST AS SURPRISED AS EVERYONE ELSE. 29 00:02:03,733 --> 00:02:07,067 AND AS SOON AS I GET UP, 30 00:02:07,067 --> 00:02:09,500 MY BODY GETS SO STARVING AND SO HUNGRY 31 00:02:09,500 --> 00:02:12,800 THAT I JUST HAVE TO EAT. 32 00:02:12,800 --> 00:02:18,433 BUT SOME DAYS, I FEEL LIKE A TICKING TIME BOMB... 33 00:02:18,433 --> 00:02:20,767 [ GROANS ] 34 00:02:20,767 --> 00:02:25,400 ...BECAUSE OF HOW EXCRUCIATING THE PAIN IS. 35 00:02:26,967 --> 00:02:30,300 MY BACK HURTS. MY LEGS HURT. 36 00:02:30,300 --> 00:02:33,567 AND I HAVE A STOMACH THAT HANGS TO MY KNEES 37 00:02:33,567 --> 00:02:36,100 AND LYMPHEDEMA EVERYWHERE. 38 00:02:38,833 --> 00:02:42,833 SO WALKING IS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME, 39 00:02:42,833 --> 00:02:47,167 AND THE ONLY PLACES THAT I CAN GO IN MY HOUSE 40 00:02:47,167 --> 00:02:52,100 ARE MY BED, THE TOILET, AND THE KITCHEN. 41 00:02:53,433 --> 00:02:56,267 SO NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS, 42 00:02:56,267 --> 00:02:59,700 I HAVE TO GET FOOD AND EAT IT IN MY BEDROOM. 43 00:03:03,500 --> 00:03:05,567 THERE'S NOTHING BETTER 44 00:03:05,567 --> 00:03:07,933 THAN TO HAVE THAT SOMETHING SWEET 45 00:03:07,933 --> 00:03:11,200 FIRST THING IN THE MORNING. 46 00:03:11,200 --> 00:03:14,767 FEELS SO GOOD. 47 00:03:14,767 --> 00:03:18,167 JUST LETS ME KNOW THAT MY DAY IS GONNA BE OKAY. 48 00:03:21,533 --> 00:03:24,067 BECAUSE I'M SO BIG, I CAN'T REALLY GO OUT, 49 00:03:24,067 --> 00:03:26,733 SO I FEEL EXTREMELY ISOLATED 50 00:03:26,733 --> 00:03:30,933 AND CUT OFF FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD. 51 00:03:30,933 --> 00:03:34,267 THE ONLY FAMILY MEMBER I GET TO SEE ON A CONSISTENT BASIS 52 00:03:34,267 --> 00:03:38,167 IS MY NIECE, JESSIE. 53 00:03:38,167 --> 00:03:41,100 SHE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT COMES AND HELPS ME, 54 00:03:41,100 --> 00:03:42,500 TAKES CARE OF ME. 55 00:03:44,400 --> 00:03:46,600 -HEY. -HEY. 56 00:03:46,600 --> 00:03:48,267 GOOD TO START YOUR SHOWER? 57 00:03:48,267 --> 00:03:50,467 -YES. -OKAY. 58 00:03:50,467 --> 00:03:53,967 I'VE ALWAYS BEEN CONCERNED ABOUT ERICA'S WEIGHT. 59 00:03:53,967 --> 00:03:56,900 AND WHERE SHE IS RIGHT NOW, 60 00:03:56,900 --> 00:04:00,467 SHE'S DEPENDENT ON ME. 61 00:04:00,467 --> 00:04:05,600 BASICALLY, I'M ERICA'S MAIN CARETAKER RIGHT NOW. 62 00:04:05,600 --> 00:04:07,200 LEG. READY? 63 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:10,367 NO. 64 00:04:10,367 --> 00:04:12,167 THERE YOU GO. 65 00:04:12,167 --> 00:04:13,667 [ GROANS ] 66 00:04:13,667 --> 00:04:19,300 TAKING A SHOWER IS SO PHYSICALLY DEMANDING AND EXHAUSTING. 67 00:04:19,300 --> 00:04:23,300 IT TAKES EVERYTHING OUT OF ME. 68 00:04:23,300 --> 00:04:28,200 AND THE WHOLE RITUAL OF IT IS TRAUMATIC. 69 00:04:28,200 --> 00:04:31,400 BUT WHEN I TAKE A SHOWER, 70 00:04:31,400 --> 00:04:34,867 IT'S THE ONLY TIME THAT I FEEL CLEAN 71 00:04:34,867 --> 00:04:38,067 BECAUSE THERE'S ALL THESE NASTY BLISTERS 72 00:04:38,067 --> 00:04:40,867 AND DEAD SKIN AND FOLDS, 73 00:04:40,867 --> 00:04:45,367 AND THEY'RE VERY HARD TO KEEP CLEAN. 74 00:04:45,367 --> 00:04:48,933 I HATE EVERY PART OF MY MASSIVE BODY. 75 00:04:51,567 --> 00:04:53,733 IT MAKES DOING THE SIMPLEST THINGS DIFFICULT. 76 00:04:53,733 --> 00:04:57,233 BUT NOBODY HAS EVER WIPED ME, 77 00:04:57,233 --> 00:05:01,067 AND NOBODY HAS EVER BATHED ME. 78 00:05:01,067 --> 00:05:04,100 BUT IT'S RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER. 79 00:05:06,433 --> 00:05:08,067 I HATE MY LIFE. 80 00:05:08,067 --> 00:05:10,867 YAH! 81 00:05:10,867 --> 00:05:12,733 OW! GAH! 82 00:05:12,733 --> 00:05:16,833 I'M NOT EVEN LIVING. 83 00:05:16,833 --> 00:05:19,700 AND I NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS 84 00:05:19,700 --> 00:05:23,900 BELIEVED THAT MY LIFE WOULD END UP LIKE THIS. 85 00:05:31,200 --> 00:05:34,367 FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN A BIG PART OF MY LIFE. 86 00:05:37,967 --> 00:05:41,067 I'M THE OLDEST OF THREE KIDS. 87 00:05:41,067 --> 00:05:44,100 I HAVE A YOUNGER SISTER AND BROTHER, 88 00:05:44,100 --> 00:05:46,700 AND THERE WAS REALLY NO CONTROL 89 00:05:46,700 --> 00:05:50,267 OVER OUR EATING. 90 00:05:50,267 --> 00:05:54,067 MY PARENTS NEVER TOLD ME TO STOP WHEN I WAS REALLY YOUNG, 91 00:05:54,067 --> 00:05:56,667 SO I JUST ATE WHEN I WANTED. 92 00:05:58,367 --> 00:06:02,733 Robert: WE HAD LOTS OF HIGH-CALORIE FOOD IN OUR HOUSE. 93 00:06:02,733 --> 00:06:08,067 MY MOM WOULD COOK BIG MEALS EVERY -- EVERY NIGHT. 94 00:06:08,067 --> 00:06:12,267 FRIED CHICKEN ONCE A WEEK. ICE CREAM ON TAP. 95 00:06:12,267 --> 00:06:15,900 SO I DON'T THINK ERICA REALLY PRACTICED DIETING 96 00:06:15,900 --> 00:06:19,800 WHEN SHE WAS YOUNGER. 97 00:06:19,800 --> 00:06:24,700 Erica: I DIDN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT MY WEIGHT UNTIL I WAS 12. 98 00:06:24,700 --> 00:06:26,633 I WAS AROUND 200 POUNDS THEN, 99 00:06:26,633 --> 00:06:28,933 AND THE KIDS AT SCHOOL WOULD TEASE ME. 100 00:06:32,367 --> 00:06:35,500 THEY WOULD SAY THINGS AND CALL ME NAMES. 101 00:06:35,500 --> 00:06:37,467 BUT NONE OF IT WOULD HURT AS MUCH 102 00:06:37,467 --> 00:06:40,067 AS WHEN MY FATHER WOULD TEASE ME. 103 00:06:42,867 --> 00:06:46,600 HE WOULD SAY SOME REALLY HURTFUL THINGS. 104 00:06:46,600 --> 00:06:51,233 HE ALWAYS SAID, "WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL? 105 00:06:51,233 --> 00:06:55,067 SHE WENT TO SLEEP ONE NIGHT, AND SHE WOKE UP GODZILLA." 106 00:06:56,733 --> 00:07:02,467 I FELT ABANDONED AND NEGLECTED BY MY FATHER. 107 00:07:02,467 --> 00:07:05,867 I JUST WANTED MY DAD TO TELL ME HE LOVED ME 108 00:07:05,867 --> 00:07:10,733 AND THAT HE WASN'T DISAPPOINTED THAT I WAS HIS DAUGHTER. 109 00:07:10,733 --> 00:07:15,233 BUT FOOD WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME, SO I KEPT EATING. 110 00:07:15,233 --> 00:07:19,533 AND I GOT BIGGER AND BIGGER. 111 00:07:19,533 --> 00:07:21,067 Robert: I THINK THAT MY DAD -- 112 00:07:21,067 --> 00:07:22,733 MAYBE HE WAS EMBARRASSED 113 00:07:22,733 --> 00:07:26,467 OF HIS OLDEST DAUGHTER BEING OVERWEIGHT 114 00:07:26,467 --> 00:07:28,300 AND WANTED TO CHANGE THAT. 115 00:07:30,733 --> 00:07:33,367 Erica: I KEPT GAINING INTO HIGH SCHOOL, 116 00:07:33,367 --> 00:07:36,967 AND I HIT 300 POUNDS. 117 00:07:36,967 --> 00:07:38,467 AND THE BIGGER I GOT, 118 00:07:38,467 --> 00:07:43,100 THE MORE MY FATHER SHARED HIS DISAPPOINTMENT IN ME. 119 00:07:43,100 --> 00:07:46,333 BUT THAT DIDN'T MATTER WHEN I WAS EATING. 120 00:07:46,333 --> 00:07:49,367 FOOD MADE ME HAPPY. 121 00:07:49,367 --> 00:07:54,500 BUT THEN SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENED TO ME WHEN I WAS 16, 122 00:07:54,500 --> 00:07:58,933 AND MY LIFE TOTALLY CHANGED FOREVER. 123 00:08:01,633 --> 00:08:04,267 I HAD STARTED SEEING SOMEONE. 124 00:08:04,267 --> 00:08:06,500 AND ONE NIGHT, 125 00:08:06,500 --> 00:08:10,500 MY BOYFRIEND TOOK ME OUT TO SOME HOUSE 126 00:08:10,500 --> 00:08:13,333 IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE. 127 00:08:13,333 --> 00:08:18,500 BUT WHEN WE GOT THERE, HIS BEST FRIEND, HIS COUSIN, 128 00:08:18,500 --> 00:08:22,433 AND THREE OTHER PEOPLE -- THEY'RE ALL THERE DRINKING BEER. 129 00:08:22,433 --> 00:08:24,767 I THOUGHT IT WAS VERY STRANGE. 130 00:08:24,767 --> 00:08:27,067 MY BOYFRIEND TOOK ME INTO A ROOM, 131 00:08:27,067 --> 00:08:30,667 AND I HAD SEX FOR THE FIRST TIME WITH HIM. 132 00:08:30,667 --> 00:08:33,933 THAT NIGHT, I ONLY SAID YES TO MY BOYFRIEND. 133 00:08:33,933 --> 00:08:36,400 I DID NOT SAY YES TO HIS BEST FRIEND 134 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:41,533 OR HIS COUSIN OR THE THREE FRIENDS AFTER THAT. 135 00:08:41,533 --> 00:08:46,200 MY FIRST SEXUAL EXPERIENCE WAS... 136 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:49,067 A GANG RAPE. 137 00:08:52,333 --> 00:08:56,867 AFTER THE RAPE, I TOLD MY MOM. 138 00:08:56,867 --> 00:08:58,333 SHE WAS ANGRY. 139 00:08:58,333 --> 00:09:00,567 SHE WAS CRYING. 140 00:09:00,567 --> 00:09:04,833 IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR HER TO HEAR. 141 00:09:06,867 --> 00:09:09,100 I BEGGED HER NOT TO TELL MY DAD. 142 00:09:09,100 --> 00:09:12,500 AND TO THIS DAY, I DON'T THINK HE KNOWS. 143 00:09:14,667 --> 00:09:17,833 I WAS SO AFRAID HE'D FIND OUT. 144 00:09:17,833 --> 00:09:20,333 AND ALL THAT PAIN AND FEAR INSIDE ME 145 00:09:20,333 --> 00:09:22,600 JUST MADE ME WANT TO EAT, 146 00:09:22,600 --> 00:09:25,467 BECAUSE WHEN I ATE, ALL THAT WENT AWAY. 147 00:09:27,500 --> 00:09:32,700 SO, I GAINED 100 POUNDS IN A VERY SHORT PERIOD OF TIME. 148 00:09:32,700 --> 00:09:34,233 AND MY FATHER DIDN'T KNOW WHY, 149 00:09:34,233 --> 00:09:37,833 SO HE WOULD REMIND ME EVERY DAY HOW BIG I WAS GETTING. 150 00:09:39,933 --> 00:09:41,833 MY MOM KNEW WHAT HAD HAPPENED 151 00:09:41,833 --> 00:09:44,067 AND WHY I WAS SO DEPRESSED 152 00:09:44,067 --> 00:09:46,800 AND CONSTANTLY RUNNING TO FOOD. 153 00:09:46,800 --> 00:09:50,300 SHE DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO HELP, BUT SHE WANTED TO TRY SOMETHING. 154 00:09:50,300 --> 00:09:54,167 SO SHE GOT MY STOMACH STAPLED WHEN I WAS 17. 155 00:09:57,500 --> 00:10:01,900 AFTER I HAD THAT SURGERY, I BRIEFLY LOST WEIGHT. 156 00:10:01,900 --> 00:10:03,367 BUT IT WASN'T TOO LONG 157 00:10:03,367 --> 00:10:08,367 BEFORE I STARTED GAINING WEIGHT RAPIDLY AGAIN, 158 00:10:08,367 --> 00:10:11,400 AND I BLEW MY STAPLE LINE OUT 159 00:10:11,400 --> 00:10:15,033 FROM MY STOMACH-STAPLING SURGERY. 160 00:10:15,033 --> 00:10:17,000 I HAD TO GO IN FOR ANOTHER SURGERY 161 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:19,533 SO THAT THEY COULD REPAIR MY STOMACH. 162 00:10:21,533 --> 00:10:24,633 BUT I HAD DONE SO MUCH DAMAGE 163 00:10:24,633 --> 00:10:26,600 THAT THEY COULDN'T PUT MY STAPLES BACK 164 00:10:26,600 --> 00:10:28,567 IN EXACTLY THE SAME WAY, 165 00:10:28,567 --> 00:10:31,900 SO IT WASN'T EFFECTIVE ANYMORE. 166 00:10:31,900 --> 00:10:34,333 AND I JUST STARTED EATING AGAIN. 167 00:10:37,767 --> 00:10:39,833 IT MADE MY MOM VERY SAD, 168 00:10:39,833 --> 00:10:44,400 BECAUSE SHE KNEW THAT I WAS NOT HAPPY. 169 00:10:44,400 --> 00:10:47,100 SHE WAS CONSTANTLY TRYING TO THINK OF EVERYTHING 170 00:10:47,100 --> 00:10:48,800 AND ANYTHING TO HELP ME 171 00:10:48,800 --> 00:10:53,567 SO THAT I COULD BE HER HAPPY DAUGHTER AGAIN. 172 00:10:53,567 --> 00:10:56,333 SHE NEVER GAVE UP ON ME. 173 00:10:56,333 --> 00:11:00,400 SHE WAS ALWAYS THERE TO SUPPORT ME AND LOVE ME. 174 00:11:02,467 --> 00:11:07,600 BUT A FEW YEARS AGO, MY MOM GOT IN A CAR WRECK 175 00:11:07,600 --> 00:11:10,767 AND SHE WAS BEING KEPT ALIVE BY A VENTILATOR. 176 00:11:12,900 --> 00:11:16,867 WHEN THE FAMILY REALIZED SHE WASN'T GONNA MAKE IT, 177 00:11:16,867 --> 00:11:19,367 THEY WENT TO SAY GOODBYE, 178 00:11:19,367 --> 00:11:25,200 AND EVERYONE WAS ABLE TO KISS HER GOODBYE. 179 00:11:25,200 --> 00:11:28,100 AND WHEN IT WAS MY TIME 180 00:11:28,100 --> 00:11:31,600 TO SAY GOODBYE TO HER, 181 00:11:31,600 --> 00:11:33,367 I DID NOT WANT TO LEAN DOWN 182 00:11:33,367 --> 00:11:36,833 AND UNPLUG ANY OF THE MACHINES ON ACCIDENT 183 00:11:36,833 --> 00:11:41,433 BECAUSE OF THE SIZE OF MY MASSIVE BODY. 184 00:11:41,433 --> 00:11:46,967 SO I MADE THE DECISION TO JUST HOLD HER HAND. 185 00:11:46,967 --> 00:11:52,300 THAT IS THE BIGGEST REGRET, 186 00:11:52,300 --> 00:11:55,233 AND IT'LL HAUNT ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE 187 00:11:55,233 --> 00:11:58,533 THAT I WAS NOT ABLE TO SAY GOODBYE TO MY MOM 188 00:11:58,533 --> 00:12:04,133 THE WAY THAT SHE NEEDED ME TO AND THE WAY THAT I NEEDED TO. 189 00:12:07,433 --> 00:12:13,233 MY MOM, NO MATTER WHAT, WAS ALWAYS HOPEFUL AND POSITIVE. 190 00:12:13,233 --> 00:12:17,933 AND I TRY SO HARD TO CARRY THAT ON FROM HER, 191 00:12:17,933 --> 00:12:20,733 BUT MOST DAYS, IT'S JUST PAIN -- 192 00:12:20,733 --> 00:12:24,067 EMOTIONAL, MENTAL, AND PHYSICAL, ALL OF IT. 193 00:12:26,067 --> 00:12:29,833 AND THE ONLY RELIEF I GET IS WHEN I EAT, 194 00:12:29,833 --> 00:12:33,200 BUT I CAN'T GET FOOD MYSELF 195 00:12:33,200 --> 00:12:36,067 SO I HAVE TO GET JESSIE TO HELP ME. 196 00:12:38,167 --> 00:12:40,700 JESSIE? 197 00:12:42,867 --> 00:12:45,600 ALL RIGHT, I'LL BE BACK. 198 00:12:45,600 --> 00:12:47,333 THANK YOU. 199 00:12:47,333 --> 00:12:49,900 I HAVE NOT BEEN TO THE GROCERY STORE 200 00:12:49,900 --> 00:12:54,900 OR ANY STORE IN FIVE OR SIX YEARS. 201 00:12:54,900 --> 00:12:57,833 SO WHEN JESSIE BRINGS ME MY GROCERIES, 202 00:12:57,833 --> 00:12:59,667 IT'S MY ONE CHANCE FOR THAT WEEK 203 00:12:59,667 --> 00:13:02,300 TO GET EVERYTHING I NEED TO SURVIVE. 204 00:13:04,533 --> 00:13:06,433 Jessie: I WORRY ABOUT ERICA 205 00:13:06,433 --> 00:13:10,133 BECAUSE MY DAD AND MY AUNT MOLLY DON'T GO SEE HER. 206 00:13:10,133 --> 00:13:12,200 NO ONE REALLY DOES. 207 00:13:12,200 --> 00:13:14,500 SO I GO OVER TO HELP HER CLEAN UP 208 00:13:14,500 --> 00:13:17,367 AND DO WHAT SHE NEEDS AND GET HER GROCERIES. 209 00:13:21,200 --> 00:13:24,200 BUT SHE PUTS A LOT OF STUFF 210 00:13:24,200 --> 00:13:28,067 SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE ON HER GROCERY LIST. 211 00:13:28,067 --> 00:13:31,100 SOMETIMES SHE PUTS CHIPS ON THE LIST 212 00:13:31,100 --> 00:13:34,367 WHEN I KNOW SHE HAS FIVE BAGS AT HOME. 213 00:13:34,367 --> 00:13:36,633 BUT I DO GET THEM FOR HER 214 00:13:36,633 --> 00:13:40,067 BECAUSE SHE WOULD GET REALLY UPSET 215 00:13:40,067 --> 00:13:43,867 IF I DIDN'T COME BACK WITH SOMETHING. 216 00:13:43,867 --> 00:13:45,567 I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. 217 00:13:45,567 --> 00:13:48,133 SEEING AND KNOWING 218 00:13:48,133 --> 00:13:50,400 THAT ERICA IS GAINING MORE WEIGHT 219 00:13:50,400 --> 00:13:53,967 IS REALLY HARD AND SAD. 220 00:13:53,967 --> 00:13:58,433 BUT I KIND OF FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED, 221 00:13:58,433 --> 00:14:01,900 'CAUSE I WANT TO HELP, BUT THIS ISN'T HELPING. 222 00:14:04,767 --> 00:14:08,500 Erica: I KNOW I CANNOT KEEP LIVING THIS WAY. 223 00:14:08,500 --> 00:14:11,200 THERE'S ENOUGH FOOD IN THIS HOUSE RIGHT NOW 224 00:14:11,200 --> 00:14:12,700 TO FEED A FAMILY OF FOUR 225 00:14:12,700 --> 00:14:15,233 FOR PROBABLY THREE MONTHS STRAIGHT. 226 00:14:15,233 --> 00:14:19,733 I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN HOW IT'S GOTTEN SO OUT OF CONTROL. 227 00:14:21,867 --> 00:14:23,600 Jessie: I REALLY WANT ERICA 228 00:14:23,600 --> 00:14:26,933 TO GET ON TRACK AND BECOME HEALTHY, 229 00:14:26,933 --> 00:14:29,600 BECAUSE HER BODY CAN'T GET MUCH BIGGER 230 00:14:29,600 --> 00:14:33,967 AND I'M AT MY BREAKING POINT WITH THIS. 231 00:14:33,967 --> 00:14:37,233 ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU NEXT WEEK. 232 00:14:37,233 --> 00:14:39,200 -NEXT WEEK. -YES. 233 00:14:39,200 --> 00:14:42,700 I CAN'T BE A PART OF HER SLOWLY DYING ANYMORE. 234 00:14:52,733 --> 00:14:56,733 Erica: TODAY, MY SISTER MOLLY IS COMING OVER 235 00:14:56,733 --> 00:15:01,167 BECAUSE I WANNA GO TO HOUSTON TO TRY AND SEE DR. NOWZARADAN. 236 00:15:01,167 --> 00:15:02,967 I CAN'T GO DOWN ON MY OWN, 237 00:15:02,967 --> 00:15:05,567 AND I CAN'T STAY THERE WITHOUT SOMEONE TO HELP ME. 238 00:15:05,567 --> 00:15:08,333 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 239 00:15:08,333 --> 00:15:11,900 SO SHE'S MY ONLY HOPE, 240 00:15:11,900 --> 00:15:15,900 BECAUSE JESSIE HAS SCHOOL AND SHE CAN'T DO IT. 241 00:15:15,900 --> 00:15:19,433 BUT I'M NERVOUS, BECAUSE SHE'S NEVER SEEN MY APARTMENT 242 00:15:19,433 --> 00:15:22,067 AND IT NEVER GOES WELL WHEN I SEE HER. 243 00:15:25,233 --> 00:15:27,633 OH, BOY. 244 00:15:27,633 --> 00:15:30,867 Molly: I CAN'T UNDERSTAND HOW SHE LIVES THIS WAY. 245 00:15:30,867 --> 00:15:33,067 ERICA IS MENTALLY ILL. HMM. 246 00:15:33,067 --> 00:15:36,867 HER APARTMENT IS DISGUSTING. 247 00:15:36,867 --> 00:15:39,233 SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH HER. 248 00:15:39,233 --> 00:15:41,067 HI, MOLLY. 249 00:15:41,067 --> 00:15:45,167 WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ALL THAT FOOD? 250 00:15:45,167 --> 00:15:47,300 IT'S JUST THERE. 251 00:15:47,300 --> 00:15:48,867 YOU TELL ME THAT YOU EAT VERY LITTLE, 252 00:15:48,867 --> 00:15:50,600 BUT OBVIOUSLY YOU DON'T. 253 00:15:50,600 --> 00:15:54,700 YOUR LEG IS ALMOST SWALLOWING UP YOUR TOES. 254 00:15:54,700 --> 00:15:56,700 ERICA, LOOK AT HOW BAD THIS IS. 255 00:15:56,700 --> 00:16:01,967 YES, IT'S VERY...BAD. 256 00:16:01,967 --> 00:16:05,367 I DON'T WANNA SEE THAT. 257 00:16:05,367 --> 00:16:07,067 YOU NEED HELP. 258 00:16:07,067 --> 00:16:12,900 I FOUND A DOCTOR THAT MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP ME. 259 00:16:12,900 --> 00:16:15,167 SO, HOW COME NOW? 260 00:16:15,167 --> 00:16:17,867 BECAUSE I DON'T WANNA DIE. 261 00:16:17,867 --> 00:16:21,167 AND I DON'T KNOW WHEN PEOPLE'S ROCK BOTTOMS COME, 262 00:16:21,167 --> 00:16:23,667 BUT THIS IS MINE. 263 00:16:23,667 --> 00:16:25,333 SO, WHERE'S THIS DOCTOR AT? 264 00:16:25,333 --> 00:16:27,267 HE'S IN HOUSTON. 265 00:16:27,267 --> 00:16:28,733 -TEXAS? -YES. 266 00:16:28,733 --> 00:16:30,667 -YOU LIVE HERE. -YES. 267 00:16:30,667 --> 00:16:33,600 WITHOUT SOMEONE GOING AND LIVING WITH ME, 268 00:16:33,600 --> 00:16:36,267 I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO GO. 269 00:16:36,267 --> 00:16:38,733 ERICA, I CAN'T LEAVE MY FAMILY. 270 00:16:38,733 --> 00:16:40,367 I KNOW. I KNOW. 271 00:16:40,367 --> 00:16:42,933 SO, THAT'S NOT HAPPENING. 272 00:16:42,933 --> 00:16:45,267 I NEED TO GET GOING. 273 00:16:45,267 --> 00:16:47,533 I GOTTA GO TO WORK. 274 00:16:47,533 --> 00:16:49,633 I NEVER GET TO SEE YOU. 275 00:16:49,633 --> 00:16:52,733 I KNOW. I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER. 276 00:16:54,567 --> 00:16:56,767 ERICA, EAT THE YOGURT, NOT THE PIE. 277 00:16:56,767 --> 00:16:58,833 -I'M GONNA TAKE THE PIE WITH ME. -NO! 278 00:16:58,833 --> 00:17:01,700 -GOODBYE. -PLEASE DO NOT. 279 00:17:01,700 --> 00:17:03,400 Molly: SHE'S AN EMBARRASSMENT, 280 00:17:03,400 --> 00:17:05,667 AND I HOPE THAT SHE GETS THE HELP THAT SHE NEEDS 281 00:17:05,667 --> 00:17:08,567 SO THAT SHE CAN BE A PART OF OUR FAMILY. 282 00:17:08,567 --> 00:17:13,567 IF SHE WANTS IT THAT BAD, SHE CAN FIGURE IT OUT. 283 00:17:13,567 --> 00:17:19,433 Erica: I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M IN THIS FIGHT ALL ON MY OWN. 284 00:17:19,433 --> 00:17:23,267 IF I CAN'T GET HELP RIGHT NOW, I KNOW I'M GONNA DIE SOON. 285 00:17:23,267 --> 00:17:26,133 BUT I STILL CAN'T STOP. 286 00:17:26,133 --> 00:17:29,533 I HAVE THE MOST UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD. 287 00:17:32,733 --> 00:17:35,633 I USE IT JUST LIKE A DRUG, 288 00:17:35,633 --> 00:17:39,167 SO IF I'M FEELING REALLY SAD, 289 00:17:39,167 --> 00:17:42,933 WORRIED, DISAPPOINTED, 290 00:17:42,933 --> 00:17:47,700 I BINGE LIKE YOU'VE NEVER SEEN. 291 00:17:49,733 --> 00:17:53,800 MY FOOD ADDICTION IS ABSOLUTELY KILLING ME. 292 00:17:53,800 --> 00:17:58,433 A VERY SLOW, AGONIZING, PAINFUL DEATH. 293 00:18:00,767 --> 00:18:04,467 I MADE A PROMISE TO MY MOM THAT I WAS GOING TO DO 294 00:18:04,467 --> 00:18:07,333 EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING THAT I COULD TO GET HEALTHY, 295 00:18:07,333 --> 00:18:10,167 BECAUSE THAT'S ALL SHE EVER WANTED. 296 00:18:10,167 --> 00:18:13,233 IT'S BEEN TWO AND A HALF YEARS SINCE SHE WAS KILLED, 297 00:18:13,233 --> 00:18:15,200 AND I HAVE NOT KEPT THAT PROMISE. 298 00:18:15,200 --> 00:18:18,867 INSTEAD, I HAVE GAINED 200 POUNDS. 299 00:18:21,733 --> 00:18:24,933 I'VE WASTED SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE, 300 00:18:24,933 --> 00:18:30,133 AND I'M WORRIED THAT MY TIME IS RUNNING OUT. 301 00:18:30,133 --> 00:18:33,733 AND IF I DON'T MAKE THE CHANGE 302 00:18:33,733 --> 00:18:36,867 THAT IS NEEDED RIGHT NOW, 303 00:18:36,867 --> 00:18:39,633 I'M GOING TO LOSE EVERYTHING. 304 00:18:47,500 --> 00:18:49,700 ** 305 00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:57,433 [ GROANING ] 306 00:18:57,433 --> 00:18:59,800 AFTER MY SISTER TOLD ME 307 00:18:59,800 --> 00:19:02,133 SHE WASN'T GOING TO HELP ME GO TO HOUSTON 308 00:19:02,133 --> 00:19:03,900 TO TRY AND GET HELP, 309 00:19:03,900 --> 00:19:05,800 I WAS SO DEPRESSED. 310 00:19:07,900 --> 00:19:12,600 I DIDN'T STOP EATING FOR A WHILE AFTER SHE LEFT. 311 00:19:12,600 --> 00:19:15,800 AND I KNOW I'VE LET HER DOWN SO MANY TIMES BEFORE, 312 00:19:15,800 --> 00:19:18,200 BUT I'M DESPERATE RIGHT NOW. 313 00:19:18,200 --> 00:19:21,167 SO I'VE BEEN CALLING HER AND BEGGING HER. 314 00:19:23,967 --> 00:19:26,233 I HAVE TO GET HELP NOW. 315 00:19:28,767 --> 00:19:31,867 SHE WAS GOING TO TALK IT OVER WITH HER HUSBAND 316 00:19:31,867 --> 00:19:33,833 AND LET ME KNOW TOMORROW, 317 00:19:33,833 --> 00:19:38,533 AND I'M HOPING THE ANSWER IS YES 318 00:19:38,533 --> 00:19:41,733 BECAUSE I HAVE TO HAVE SOMEONE HELP ME DO THIS. 319 00:19:52,433 --> 00:19:54,100 I TALKED TO MY SISTER, 320 00:19:54,100 --> 00:19:56,500 AND SHE HAS AGREED TO TAKE ME TO HOUSTON, 321 00:19:56,500 --> 00:19:59,367 BUT SHE STILL WON'T STAY WITH ME 322 00:19:59,367 --> 00:20:03,567 OR HELP ME GET SITUATED DOWN THERE. 323 00:20:03,567 --> 00:20:05,433 SHE SAID SHE AND HER HUSBAND 324 00:20:05,433 --> 00:20:09,867 WILL GO DOWN WITH ME TO JUST HELP ME GET THERE, 325 00:20:09,867 --> 00:20:11,200 BUT SHE WON'T DRIVE ME 326 00:20:11,200 --> 00:20:15,433 BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T WANNA BE IN A CAR THAT LONG. 327 00:20:15,433 --> 00:20:17,567 SHE WANTS TO FLY. 328 00:20:17,567 --> 00:20:21,167 AND IT'S BEEN ALMOST 20 YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN ON A PLANE. 329 00:20:22,700 --> 00:20:27,167 I'M EXTREMELY NERVOUS ABOUT MY TRIP. 330 00:20:27,167 --> 00:20:29,933 I'M NOT QUITE SURE HOW IT'S GONNA BE 331 00:20:29,933 --> 00:20:32,333 TO BE ABLE TO TAKE A SHOWER AT THE HOTEL, 332 00:20:32,333 --> 00:20:34,833 SO IN ORDER FOR ME TO STAY CLEAN, 333 00:20:34,833 --> 00:20:39,833 I NEED ALL OF THESE CLEANSING CLOTHS. 334 00:20:39,833 --> 00:20:43,433 MOST PEOPLE DON'T HAVE TO PACK THAT TYPE OF STUFF. 335 00:20:47,933 --> 00:20:51,000 MOLLY IS COMING IN THE MORNING WITH HER HUSBAND TO GET ME, 336 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:53,867 AND WE'LL GO TO THE AIRPORT. 337 00:20:53,867 --> 00:20:57,100 I'M SO EXTREMELY NERVOUS. 338 00:20:57,100 --> 00:21:01,667 I DON'T HAVE A MONTH TO WAIT. OR TWO MONTHS OR NEXT YEAR. 339 00:21:01,667 --> 00:21:03,700 IT'S NOW OR NEVER. 340 00:21:18,400 --> 00:21:20,333 -HI, MOLLY. -HI. 341 00:21:25,433 --> 00:21:28,800 OH, BOY. 342 00:21:28,800 --> 00:21:33,100 TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I TAKE THE BIG TRIP TO SEE THE DOCTOR. 343 00:21:33,100 --> 00:21:36,567 ALL RIGHT, HERE WE GO. 344 00:21:36,567 --> 00:21:40,400 I'M NERVOUS ABOUT HOW PHYSICALLY DEMANDING IT'S GONNA BE... 345 00:21:40,400 --> 00:21:44,067 SERIOUSLY? YOU NEED TO SIT? 346 00:21:44,067 --> 00:21:48,500 ...AND VERY NERVOUS ABOUT BEING IN PUBLIC WITH SO MANY PEOPLE. 347 00:21:50,633 --> 00:21:52,533 Molly: THE WHOLE THING'S GONNA BE A CHALLENGE. 348 00:21:52,533 --> 00:21:54,433 JUST TRYING TO GET HER IN THE CAR FROM HERE, 349 00:21:54,433 --> 00:21:55,967 TRYING TO GET HER ON AN AIRPLANE. 350 00:21:55,967 --> 00:21:58,467 SHE'S VERY BIG. 351 00:21:58,467 --> 00:22:00,167 EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE A CHALLENGE. 352 00:22:00,167 --> 00:22:02,967 THIS IS GONNA BE ROUGH. 353 00:22:02,967 --> 00:22:06,333 -PUT YOUR FOOT IN. -I CA-- 354 00:22:06,333 --> 00:22:10,133 I HOPE THIS IS A CHANCE FOR HER TO FIX THINGS AND CHANGE THINGS. 355 00:22:10,133 --> 00:22:13,100 ARE WE SITTING BACK DOWN? OKAY. 356 00:22:13,100 --> 00:22:15,067 BUT I'M SKEPTICAL. 357 00:22:17,133 --> 00:22:19,667 EVEN IF WE GET THERE AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS, 358 00:22:19,667 --> 00:22:23,467 I DON'T TRUST THAT SHE WILL SUCCEED AT THIS MOMENT 359 00:22:23,467 --> 00:22:25,467 'CAUSE SHE NEVER HAS. 360 00:22:25,467 --> 00:22:28,300 -JUST GET IN. START. -[ BLEEP ] 361 00:22:28,300 --> 00:22:30,733 [BLEEP] [BLEEP] 362 00:22:30,733 --> 00:22:33,533 Erica: THE LIFE THAT I'M LIVING RIGHT NOW IS PATHETIC. 363 00:22:33,533 --> 00:22:39,067 IT'S DISGUSTING. IT'S NONSTOP WEAKNESS. 364 00:22:39,067 --> 00:22:40,267 Molly: KEEP GOING. 365 00:22:40,267 --> 00:22:43,267 [ GRUNTING ] 366 00:22:43,267 --> 00:22:46,300 MY MOM WAS THE STRONGEST PERSON 367 00:22:46,300 --> 00:22:49,433 THAT I HAD EVER KNOWN IN MY ENTIRE LIFETIME. 368 00:22:49,433 --> 00:22:51,233 OW! 369 00:22:51,233 --> 00:22:53,967 I DO NOT WANT TO GO ANOTHER DAY 370 00:22:53,967 --> 00:22:59,067 NOT FULFILLING THAT PROMISE TO MY MOM. 371 00:22:59,067 --> 00:23:03,633 THAT OUTWEIGHS THE FEAR OF WHAT'S TO COME. 372 00:23:03,633 --> 00:23:06,067 Molly: IS IT TOO LATE TO ABORT THIS PLAN? 373 00:23:12,300 --> 00:23:14,233 MY LIFE HAS TO CHANGE, 374 00:23:14,233 --> 00:23:16,267 AND I'M DESPERATE RIGHT NOW. 375 00:23:19,067 --> 00:23:21,500 BUT I'M SCARED THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO DO IT 376 00:23:21,500 --> 00:23:25,067 OR THAT I'M BEYOND HELP. 377 00:23:25,067 --> 00:23:27,500 BUT I KNOW IF I GIVE INTO THE FEAR RIGHT NOW 378 00:23:27,500 --> 00:23:29,300 AND GO BACK HOME, 379 00:23:29,300 --> 00:23:32,433 THAT WOULD BE A DEATH SENTENCE FOR ME. 380 00:23:32,433 --> 00:23:36,500 I'D BE CHOOSING TO GO HOME AND DIE. 381 00:23:36,500 --> 00:23:41,833 SO MATTER HOW SCARY THIS GETS, I CAN'T TURN BACK. 382 00:23:41,833 --> 00:23:45,067 I JUST HOPE THAT I'M PHYSICALLY ABLE TO MAKE IT 383 00:23:45,067 --> 00:23:48,567 AND THAT I CAN FIT DOWN THE AISLE AND IN THE SEATS. 384 00:24:01,967 --> 00:24:05,533 I KNOW THE RISK I'M TAKING RIGHT NOW, 385 00:24:05,533 --> 00:24:07,300 BECAUSE THE DOCTOR TOLD ME 386 00:24:07,300 --> 00:24:10,667 IT'S NOT A GOOD IDEA TO TRAVEL WITHOUT MEDICAL CARE 387 00:24:10,667 --> 00:24:13,133 OR TO FLY RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF MY LEGS 388 00:24:13,133 --> 00:24:16,633 AND THE POSSIBILITY OF BLOOD CLOTS. 389 00:24:16,633 --> 00:24:21,633 BUT THIS IS MY ONLY CHANCE. I HAVE NO OTHER OPTIONS. 390 00:24:25,233 --> 00:24:29,533 I'M DOING THIS SO I HAVE A CHANCE TO LIVE, 391 00:24:29,533 --> 00:24:34,433 BUT NOW THAT I'M HERE, IT'S SO MUCH SCARIER. 392 00:24:34,433 --> 00:24:36,433 IT FEELS LIKE EVERYONE IS WATCHING ME, 393 00:24:36,433 --> 00:24:39,367 AND THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING. 394 00:24:44,933 --> 00:24:46,633 RIGHT BEHIND YOU, MISS. BEEP, BEEP! 395 00:24:46,633 --> 00:24:48,400 I'M SORRY. 396 00:24:48,400 --> 00:24:49,900 HOW DID I GET TO THIS POINT 397 00:24:49,900 --> 00:24:52,300 WHERE I'M LIKE A SIDE SHOW TO PEOPLE? 398 00:24:54,533 --> 00:24:57,300 THEY HAVE TO CART ME PAST EVERYONE 399 00:24:57,300 --> 00:25:00,067 JUST TO MAKE SURE I CAN FIT. 400 00:25:03,967 --> 00:25:06,700 I DESPERATELY HOPE I DON'T HAVE TO COME BACK OUT 401 00:25:06,700 --> 00:25:08,700 AND GO PAST EVERYONE AGAIN 402 00:25:08,700 --> 00:25:11,433 BECAUSE I CAN'T EVEN FIT ON A PLANE. 403 00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:17,400 THEY'VE ALREADY MADE ME BUY A WHOLE AISLE OF THREE SEATS 404 00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:18,867 BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 405 00:25:18,867 --> 00:25:21,833 Molly: KEEP GOING. ERICA, PICK UP. 406 00:25:23,067 --> 00:25:25,300 Erica: THAT ALONE IS HUMILIATING. 407 00:25:31,533 --> 00:25:33,900 THANK YOU. THANK YOU. 408 00:25:33,900 --> 00:25:37,467 I'M JUST SO HAPPY I FIT, 409 00:25:37,467 --> 00:25:40,567 BUT I STILL HAVE THE WHOLE PLANE RIDE TO GET THROUGH, 410 00:25:40,567 --> 00:25:43,933 AND I'M TERRIFIED. 411 00:25:43,933 --> 00:25:46,667 IT'S GONNA BE OVER THREE AND A HALF HOURS, 412 00:25:46,667 --> 00:25:48,333 AND I KNOW IT'S DANGEROUS 413 00:25:48,333 --> 00:25:52,867 FOR SOMEONE MY SIZE TO TRAVEL IN THE AIR. 414 00:25:52,867 --> 00:25:54,767 SO I'M JUST SO AFRAID RIGHT NOW 415 00:25:54,767 --> 00:25:57,700 THAT SOMETHING'S STILL GOING TO HAPPEN 416 00:25:57,700 --> 00:25:59,733 AND I'M NOT GOING TO MAKE IT. 417 00:26:06,767 --> 00:26:11,500 ** 418 00:26:11,500 --> 00:26:14,100 Man: ON THREE. ONE, TWO, THREE. 419 00:26:17,300 --> 00:26:19,233 -I GOTTA GET UP. -KEEP GOING. 420 00:26:19,233 --> 00:26:21,267 OKAY. LEGS THERE. 421 00:26:24,233 --> 00:26:26,767 OKAY, WE'RE THERE. 422 00:26:32,533 --> 00:26:35,200 -YOU GOT IT. YOU GOT IT. -THANK YOU. THANK YOU. 423 00:26:35,200 --> 00:26:39,067 Molly: YOU ALL RIGHT? 424 00:26:39,067 --> 00:26:41,300 YOU OKAY? 425 00:26:41,300 --> 00:26:44,633 Erica: WE FINALLY MADE IT TO HOUSTON, 426 00:26:44,633 --> 00:26:48,267 AND I'M SO GLAD TO BE HERE AND OFF THE PLANE. 427 00:26:48,267 --> 00:26:53,367 IT WAS SO DIFFICULT TO SIT IN THAT SEAT FOR SO LONG. 428 00:26:53,367 --> 00:26:56,067 NOW ALL I WANNA DO IS GET TO THE HOTEL, 429 00:26:56,067 --> 00:26:58,867 AND I'M HOPING I CAN FIT ON THE BED THERE. 430 00:27:01,133 --> 00:27:03,633 OKAY. 431 00:27:03,633 --> 00:27:06,167 AH! 432 00:27:12,867 --> 00:27:17,167 ALL I WANNA DO IS LAY DOWN BECAUSE I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. 433 00:27:17,167 --> 00:27:20,633 I DIDN'T THINK THAT I WAS GONNA MAKE IT, 434 00:27:20,633 --> 00:27:24,533 SO I'M ACTUALLY PRETTY SHOCKED THAT I DID. 435 00:27:24,533 --> 00:27:26,533 THIS IS NOT -- I'M GONNA FALL. 436 00:27:26,533 --> 00:27:29,067 -OW! -YOU'RE NOT FALLING. 437 00:27:31,567 --> 00:27:35,867 I'M FEELING VERY SORE, VERY SWOLLEN AND WEAK, 438 00:27:35,867 --> 00:27:38,767 AND I'M EXHAUSTED. 439 00:27:38,767 --> 00:27:41,567 IF I HAD KNOWN HOW HARD THIS WAS GOING TO BE, 440 00:27:41,567 --> 00:27:43,667 I'M NOT SURE I WOULD'VE DONE IT. 441 00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:51,100 I JUST CAN'T BE UP MUCH LONGER, 442 00:27:51,100 --> 00:27:54,067 BECAUSE I'M ABOUT TO PASS OUT FROM THE PAIN. 443 00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:06,833 I CAN'T BELIEVE I MADE IT. 444 00:28:06,833 --> 00:28:11,900 I HAVEN'T GONE THIS FAR OR DONE THIS MUCH IN SO LONG. 445 00:28:11,900 --> 00:28:13,800 I'M COMPLETELY WIPED OUT RIGHT NOW 446 00:28:13,800 --> 00:28:16,667 AND JUST WANNA GO TO BED AND END THIS DAY. 447 00:28:21,233 --> 00:28:22,900 TOMORROW I SEE THE DOCTOR, 448 00:28:22,900 --> 00:28:27,133 AND I HOPE HE CAN HELP AND THAT THIS WASN'T ALL FOR NOTHING. 449 00:28:37,567 --> 00:28:39,733 WHAT'S THE PROBLEM, ERICA? 450 00:28:39,733 --> 00:28:43,133 I NEED TO -- I DO. 451 00:28:43,133 --> 00:28:45,067 YOU WANT ME TO GO CHECK THE BATHROOM 452 00:28:45,067 --> 00:28:47,867 AND MAKE SURE IT'S ACCESSIBLE? 453 00:28:52,800 --> 00:28:55,467 Molly: I REALLY DON'T KNOW IF SHE'S GONNA MAKE IT. 454 00:28:55,467 --> 00:28:57,600 THAT'S MY CONCERN AT THIS MOMENT. 455 00:28:57,600 --> 00:28:59,500 WE BARELY GOT OFF THE FLIGHT. 456 00:28:59,500 --> 00:29:02,267 HER LEGS GAVE OUT ON HER WHEN SHE WAS GETTING UP. 457 00:29:02,267 --> 00:29:03,600 THE BEGINNING WENT FINE, 458 00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:06,667 BUT IT WAS GETTING OUT THAT WAS VERY DIFFICULT. 459 00:29:15,933 --> 00:29:18,467 YEP. ALL RIGHT. 460 00:29:26,200 --> 00:29:28,233 Dr. Nowzaradan: This is Dr. Nowzaradan. 461 00:29:28,233 --> 00:29:30,700 HI DR. NOW. HOW ARE YOU? 462 00:29:33,467 --> 00:29:36,633 I WENT TO THE BATHROOM WHEN I GOT INTO THE HOTEL ROOM, 463 00:29:36,633 --> 00:29:41,767 AND MY URINE IS BRIGHT RED. 464 00:29:41,767 --> 00:29:43,733 AND IT'S NOT -- 465 00:29:43,733 --> 00:29:47,133 IT'S NOT ANYTHING FROM, LIKE, MENSTRUAL OR PERIOD. 466 00:29:47,133 --> 00:29:48,400 IT'S IN THE URINE. 467 00:29:48,400 --> 00:29:50,933 That's bad, so... 468 00:29:55,833 --> 00:29:57,367 -OKAY. -All right. 469 00:29:57,367 --> 00:29:59,067 -THANK YOU. -Sure. 470 00:29:59,067 --> 00:30:01,567 OKAY. BYE. 471 00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:13,033 I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG, AND I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. 472 00:30:13,033 --> 00:30:15,133 I HOPE I DIDN'T DO TOO MUCH, 473 00:30:15,133 --> 00:30:17,800 AND I DIDN'T WAIT UNTIL MY BODY WAS SO BAD OFF 474 00:30:17,800 --> 00:30:19,933 THAT TRYING TO COME HERE TO GET HELP 475 00:30:19,933 --> 00:30:21,867 PUSHED ME OVER THE LIMIT, 476 00:30:21,867 --> 00:30:24,967 AND THAT SOMETHING IS REALLY WRONG WITH ME 477 00:30:24,967 --> 00:30:27,000 OR THAT I'M ABOUT TO DIE. 478 00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:30,167 I JUST WANNA GET THERE AND FIND OUT WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. 479 00:30:35,067 --> 00:30:37,567 Dr. Nowzaradan: ERICA CAME FROM CALIFORNIA 480 00:30:37,567 --> 00:30:39,000 AND HAD A LONG TRIP, 481 00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:41,100 AND WHEN SHE GOT IN THE HOTEL 482 00:30:41,100 --> 00:30:44,067 SHE SAID SHE'S HAVING BLOOD IN HER URINE. 483 00:30:44,067 --> 00:30:47,767 THAT KIND OF TRAVEL FOR SOMEBODY OVER 600 POUNDS 484 00:30:47,767 --> 00:30:51,333 IS TREMENDOUS STRAIN ON THE HEART AND LUNG 485 00:30:51,333 --> 00:30:54,767 AND CAN CREATE A LIFE-THREATENING SITUATION. 486 00:30:54,767 --> 00:30:58,633 BUT AIR TRAVEL CAN BE EVEN MORE DANGEROUS. 487 00:30:58,633 --> 00:31:00,767 THE LOWER ATMOSPHERIC PRESSURE 488 00:31:00,767 --> 00:31:03,467 CAN CAUSE A LOT OF ISSUES IN HER BODY. 489 00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:12,967 SO WE NEED TO RUN OUR TESTS AND EXAMINE HER QUICKLY 490 00:31:12,967 --> 00:31:15,367 TO FIGURE OUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH HER. 491 00:31:17,067 --> 00:31:19,500 [ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ] 492 00:31:20,233 --> 00:31:23,267 IT'S ALL RIGHT. WE CAN GO AHEAD. GO AHEAD. 493 00:31:34,567 --> 00:31:36,333 AND IT CAN BE CAUSED BY 494 00:31:36,333 --> 00:31:40,933 A BLOOD CLOT CUTTING OFF THE BLOOD FLOW TO HER LIMBS. 495 00:31:40,933 --> 00:31:42,867 THANK YOU, GUYS. 496 00:31:42,867 --> 00:31:44,500 IF THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING, 497 00:31:44,500 --> 00:31:47,400 HER BODY CANNOT TAKE THE STRAIN FOR TOO LONG. 498 00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:50,500 LET ME LISTEN TO YOUR HEART AND MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY. 499 00:31:50,500 --> 00:31:51,733 AND IN HER CONDITION, 500 00:31:51,733 --> 00:31:54,333 CARDIAC ARREST CAN HAPPEN ANY TIME, 501 00:31:54,333 --> 00:31:57,667 AND WE MAY NOT BE ABLE TO SAVE HER IF THAT HAPPENS. 502 00:32:04,633 --> 00:32:06,900 ** 503 00:32:32,767 --> 00:32:35,500 Erica: I'M REALLY HOPING THAT THE DOCTOR CAN HELP ME, 504 00:32:35,500 --> 00:32:40,233 'CAUSE I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE I HAVE ANY OTHER OPTIONS LEFT. 505 00:32:40,233 --> 00:32:44,433 BUT THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN IS HIM TELLING ME 506 00:32:44,433 --> 00:32:46,733 THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE A CANDIDATE 507 00:32:46,733 --> 00:32:49,467 FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 508 00:32:49,467 --> 00:32:51,933 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 509 00:32:51,933 --> 00:32:53,867 -HOW YOU DOING? -I'M OKAY. 510 00:32:53,867 --> 00:32:55,200 ARE YOU FEELING BETTER? 511 00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:56,967 I'M FEELING A LITTLE BETTER TODAY. 512 00:32:56,967 --> 00:32:59,533 DID THEY GIVE YOU SOME FOOD TO EAT TODAY? 513 00:32:59,533 --> 00:33:02,600 -MM-HMM. -AND HOW WAS THAT? 514 00:33:02,600 --> 00:33:04,967 IT'S OKAY. IT WAS OKAY. 515 00:33:04,967 --> 00:33:06,600 IS THAT THE TYPE OF FOOD THAT YOU LIKE? 516 00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:07,767 NO. 517 00:33:10,267 --> 00:33:13,167 A LOT OF CARBS AND SUGAR, ALL DAY, EVERYDAY. 518 00:33:13,167 --> 00:33:16,900 AND SO, WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT IF IT'S KILLING YOU? 519 00:33:16,900 --> 00:33:19,167 IT'S JUST ALL THE FOOD THAT I LOVE. 520 00:33:19,167 --> 00:33:20,567 YOU'RE EATING THIS STUFF, 521 00:33:20,567 --> 00:33:24,067 AND YOU KNOW FOR A FACT THAT IT'S GONNA HARM YOU. 522 00:33:24,067 --> 00:33:26,133 I'M A HARD-CORE FOOD ADDICT, 523 00:33:26,133 --> 00:33:28,967 AND I NEED HELP TO STOP EATING LIKE THAT. 524 00:33:28,967 --> 00:33:30,300 IT'S OUT OF CONTROL. 525 00:33:30,300 --> 00:33:32,067 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, "OUT OF CONTROL"? 526 00:33:32,067 --> 00:33:33,933 -THIS IS A CHOICE YOU'RE MAKING. -I KNOW THIS. 527 00:33:33,933 --> 00:33:35,500 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, "OUT OF CONTROL"? 528 00:33:35,500 --> 00:33:38,300 FOOD ADDICTION IS A CHOICE, OKAY? 529 00:33:38,300 --> 00:33:40,933 AND IF YOU DON'T WANNA BE 600 POUNDS, 530 00:33:40,933 --> 00:33:43,433 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO MAKE THE CHANGES. 531 00:33:43,433 --> 00:33:46,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: ERICA HAS HAD A PATHOLOGICAL DRIVE TO EAT 532 00:33:46,733 --> 00:33:48,400 FOR A LONG TIME NOW. 533 00:33:48,400 --> 00:33:50,500 ACCORDING TO HER MEDICAL HISTORY, 534 00:33:50,500 --> 00:33:52,567 SHE ALREADY HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 535 00:33:52,567 --> 00:33:55,067 WHEN SHE WAS 16 AND IT FAILED 536 00:33:55,067 --> 00:33:57,467 BECAUSE SHE STILL ATE WHATEVER SHE WANTED 537 00:33:57,467 --> 00:34:00,300 AND BLEW THE STAPLES OUT. 538 00:34:00,300 --> 00:34:03,900 THE ODDS OF LONG-TERM SUCCESS FOR A PATIENT HER SIZE 539 00:34:03,900 --> 00:34:05,700 IS VERY LOW, 540 00:34:05,700 --> 00:34:08,333 BUT THE PROBABILITY IS EVEN WORSE 541 00:34:08,333 --> 00:34:11,133 IF THEY ALREADY HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 542 00:34:11,133 --> 00:34:13,867 YOU ALREADY HAD ONE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 543 00:34:13,867 --> 00:34:15,867 -RIGHT. -AND THAT DIDN'T WORK. 544 00:34:15,867 --> 00:34:18,067 THE PREVIOUS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY -- 545 00:34:18,067 --> 00:34:22,667 I WAS WAY TO YOUNG AND IMMATURE TO HAVE SOMETHING LIKE THAT. 546 00:34:22,667 --> 00:34:25,167 NOW THAT YOU'RE AN ADULT AND MATURE, 547 00:34:25,167 --> 00:34:29,533 YOU'RE STILL NOT FOLLOWING WHAT THE COMMON SENSE WOULD DO. 548 00:34:29,533 --> 00:34:31,367 YOU NEED TO MAKE THE CHANGES. 549 00:34:31,367 --> 00:34:35,300 AT THIS POINT, UNLESS WE GET A HANDLE ON EATING HABIT, 550 00:34:35,300 --> 00:34:37,900 THERE IS NO CHANCE THAT 551 00:34:37,900 --> 00:34:40,633 ANY KIND OF SURGERY'S GONNA RECORRECT YOU. 552 00:34:40,633 --> 00:34:43,833 SO DON'T FROWN ON THE DIET THAT WE'VE GIVEN YOU. 553 00:34:43,833 --> 00:34:48,133 THIS IS GONNA BE YOUR DIET FROM THIS POINT ON. 554 00:34:48,133 --> 00:34:49,367 OKAY. 555 00:34:49,367 --> 00:34:51,300 YOU SAID THAT YOUR SISTER IS GOING BACK HOME 556 00:34:51,300 --> 00:34:54,067 AND YOU HAVE NO ONE ELSE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU. 557 00:34:54,067 --> 00:34:55,500 YES. 558 00:34:55,500 --> 00:34:58,533 YOU ARE IN TOO POOR A CONDITION TO BE ON YOUR OWN, 559 00:34:58,533 --> 00:35:01,067 SO WE'RE GONNA KEEP YOU HERE FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS 560 00:35:01,067 --> 00:35:03,400 TO HELP YOU RECOVER FROM TRAVEL. 561 00:35:03,400 --> 00:35:06,400 THEN I'M SENDING YOU BACK TO CALIFORNIA 562 00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:08,067 AND WE'RE GONNA CONCENTRATE 563 00:35:08,067 --> 00:35:12,400 ON GETTING YOU ON A 1,200-CALORIE DIET AT HOME. 564 00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:13,867 SO, NO SUGARY DRINK. 565 00:35:13,867 --> 00:35:15,667 THERE'LL BE VERY LITTLE CARB, 566 00:35:15,667 --> 00:35:19,100 AND IF YOU STICK WITH THE DIET THAT WE GIVE YOU, 567 00:35:19,100 --> 00:35:20,500 YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 568 00:35:20,500 --> 00:35:23,667 AT LEAST 50 POUNDS IN FIRST MONTH. 569 00:35:23,667 --> 00:35:25,600 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S GOING TO BE VERY DIFFICULT 570 00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:27,433 TO CHANGE THINGS WITH ERICA. 571 00:35:27,433 --> 00:35:31,067 SHE HAS THAT HISTORY OF NONCOMPLIANCE WITH HER EATING 572 00:35:31,067 --> 00:35:34,067 BECAUSE SHE'S MOTIVATED BY THE IDEA OF CHANGE 573 00:35:34,067 --> 00:35:37,633 BUT NOT REALLY READY TO DO THE HARD WORK. 574 00:35:37,633 --> 00:35:40,100 I NEED TO GIVE THEM A WAKE-UP CALL 575 00:35:40,100 --> 00:35:43,167 SO SHE AND HER FAMILY FULLY UNDERSTAND 576 00:35:43,167 --> 00:35:45,733 THEY NEED TO BE COMMITTED TO THIS. 577 00:35:45,733 --> 00:35:47,467 WE'RE GONNA CHECK YOUR WEIGHT. 578 00:35:47,467 --> 00:35:51,067 DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU CAN GET UP OUT OF THE BED 579 00:35:51,067 --> 00:35:52,700 AND STAND UP? 580 00:35:52,700 --> 00:35:54,600 YES. ALL RIGHT? 581 00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:56,767 Molly: I THINK IT'LL BE VERY DIFFICULT FOR ERICA 582 00:35:56,767 --> 00:35:58,567 TO GIVE UP FOOD, 583 00:35:58,567 --> 00:36:01,567 SWEETS, CARBS. 584 00:36:01,567 --> 00:36:04,333 I'M WORRIED SHE WON'T SUCCEED, 585 00:36:04,333 --> 00:36:07,900 BECAUSE SHE NEVER HAS BEFORE. 586 00:36:07,900 --> 00:36:10,967 BUT SHE'S GONNA DIE IF SHE DOESN'T. 587 00:36:10,967 --> 00:36:14,533 ALL RIGHT, SO... 588 00:36:14,533 --> 00:36:17,067 661. 589 00:36:19,667 --> 00:36:24,333 Erica: I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I LET THIS HAPPEN TO MYSELF, 590 00:36:24,333 --> 00:36:29,267 BUT I'VE JUST BEEN IN DENIAL FOR MANY, MANY YEARS. 591 00:36:29,267 --> 00:36:32,533 SO, NOW WE KNOW YOUR REAL WEIGHT. 592 00:36:32,533 --> 00:36:35,533 YOU'RE 661 POUNDS, 593 00:36:35,533 --> 00:36:38,500 AND THIS IS A LOT OF WEIGHT. 594 00:36:38,500 --> 00:36:41,467 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO MAKE SOME CHANGES, OKAY? 595 00:36:41,467 --> 00:36:46,133 AT THIS POINT, I DON'T SEE A SINCERE WILLINGNESS FROM ERICA 596 00:36:46,133 --> 00:36:48,233 TO CHANGE HER EATING HABIT. 597 00:36:48,233 --> 00:36:50,667 UNLESS SHE HAVE A CHANGE OF ATTITUDE, 598 00:36:50,667 --> 00:36:53,833 SHE'S NOT GONNA BE A CANDIDATE FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 599 00:36:53,833 --> 00:36:55,333 ALL RIGHT. I WILL SEE YOU LATER. 600 00:36:55,333 --> 00:36:58,467 THANKS, DR. NOW. 601 00:36:58,467 --> 00:37:02,133 Erica: THIS WAS NOT WHAT I WAS HOPING TO HEAR TODAY, 602 00:37:02,133 --> 00:37:04,767 AND I'M FREAKING OUT A LITTLE. 603 00:37:04,767 --> 00:37:06,567 WITHOUT A DOUBT, 604 00:37:06,567 --> 00:37:11,067 I'M WORRIED ABOUT FAILING ON AN EPIC LEVEL. 605 00:37:11,067 --> 00:37:13,767 SO, MY ONLY CHANCE IS TO LOSE THE 50 POUNDS 606 00:37:13,767 --> 00:37:16,500 HE SAYS I HAVE TO LOSE. 607 00:37:16,500 --> 00:37:19,833 I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO DO THIS AT ALL, 608 00:37:19,833 --> 00:37:23,067 BUT IT'S GONNA BE THE MOST DIFFICULT THING 609 00:37:23,067 --> 00:37:26,067 I'VE EVER DONE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. 610 00:37:41,500 --> 00:37:44,367 [ DOG BARKING ] 611 00:37:48,633 --> 00:37:52,500 I'VE BEEN BACK HOME FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS. 612 00:37:52,500 --> 00:37:55,800 THE HOSPITAL STAY WAS HARD. 613 00:37:55,800 --> 00:37:58,167 I DIDN'T LIKE BEING THERE FOR SO LONG, 614 00:37:58,167 --> 00:38:00,267 AND I WAS GLAD TO GET OUT. 615 00:38:02,467 --> 00:38:05,300 BUT AS SOON AS I GOT HOME, I WAS REALLY FRUSTRATED 616 00:38:05,300 --> 00:38:08,200 BECAUSE JESSIE HAD CLEANED OUT 617 00:38:08,200 --> 00:38:10,800 ALL THE JUNK FOOD IN MY WHOLE HOUSE. 618 00:38:15,333 --> 00:38:17,600 SHE SAID IF I WAS SERIOUS ABOUT THIS, 619 00:38:17,600 --> 00:38:20,500 I DON'T NEED ALL THAT. 620 00:38:20,500 --> 00:38:23,167 AND SHE WON'T BRING ME ANYTHING I LIKE, 621 00:38:23,167 --> 00:38:25,700 SO I'M REALLY ANGRY ABOUT THAT. 622 00:38:27,867 --> 00:38:31,200 BUT I DISCOVERED I CAN DO FOOD DELIVERY, 623 00:38:31,200 --> 00:38:33,700 AND I'VE BEEN ORDERING WHATEVER I WANT. 624 00:38:40,067 --> 00:38:43,333 BUT MY SISTER FOUND OUT AND TOLD DR. NOW ABOUT IT, 625 00:38:43,333 --> 00:38:46,533 AND HE WASN'T HAPPY. 626 00:38:46,533 --> 00:38:49,900 SO HE'S SENDING A NUTRITIONIST TO MEET WITH ME TODAY 627 00:38:49,900 --> 00:38:53,533 AND HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT I SHOULD BE EATING BETTER. 628 00:38:53,533 --> 00:38:55,933 AND IF I HAVE A LOT OF JUNK FOOD, 629 00:38:55,933 --> 00:38:59,600 HE SAID SHE'S PROBABLY GOING TO CLEAN IT ALL OUT, 630 00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:03,267 AND I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO ANY OF THAT AT ALL. 631 00:39:03,267 --> 00:39:04,733 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 632 00:39:04,733 --> 00:39:07,533 COME IN! 633 00:39:07,533 --> 00:39:10,067 HI, ERICA. I'M SUSAN. NICE TO MEET YOU. 634 00:39:10,067 --> 00:39:12,433 -NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. -HOW ARE YOU DOING? 635 00:39:12,433 --> 00:39:14,100 -NICE. -GREAT. 636 00:39:14,100 --> 00:39:16,933 OKAY, SO, DID THE DOCTOR GIVE YOU A SPECIAL DIET 637 00:39:16,933 --> 00:39:18,600 TO BE ON BEFORE YOUR SURGERY? 638 00:39:18,600 --> 00:39:22,633 HE JUST SAID 1,200 CALORIES, VERY HIGH PROTEIN, 639 00:39:22,633 --> 00:39:24,533 LIKE AS MUCH PROTEIN AS POSSIBLE, 640 00:39:24,533 --> 00:39:28,467 AND ZERO TO LOW CARBS AND ZERO TO LOW SUGAR. 641 00:39:28,467 --> 00:39:31,067 OKAY, SO, WE HAVE THIS LIST OF FOODS THAT YOU CAN HAVE. 642 00:39:31,067 --> 00:39:32,733 LET'S SEE WHAT'S IN YOUR KITCHEN 643 00:39:32,733 --> 00:39:36,533 AND MAYBE SEE WHAT FOODS THAT WILL WORK FOR YOU, OKAY? 644 00:39:43,067 --> 00:39:45,233 OKAY, SO, LET'S LOOK AT FOOD PRODUCTS 645 00:39:45,233 --> 00:39:46,967 THAT YOU'VE ORDERED. 646 00:39:46,967 --> 00:39:48,267 SO, YOU SAID A LOT OF THE FOOD 647 00:39:48,267 --> 00:39:50,500 WAS TAKEN OUT OF YOUR HOME ALREADY. 648 00:39:50,500 --> 00:39:53,067 YEAH, A LOT OF IT. THERE'S SOME STILL HERE. 649 00:39:53,067 --> 00:39:55,400 OKAY, LET'S LOOK IN THE KITCHEN. 650 00:39:55,400 --> 00:39:58,633 OKAY, SO, YOU'VE GOT SOME GREEK YOGURTS -- 651 00:39:58,633 --> 00:40:01,433 80 CALORIES, HIGH PROTEIN, GREAT. 652 00:40:01,433 --> 00:40:03,267 THE GOOD THING ABOUT PROTEIN 653 00:40:03,267 --> 00:40:06,167 IS IT KEEPS YOUR BLOOD SUGARS AT A HIGH LEVEL, 654 00:40:06,167 --> 00:40:07,967 AND YOU MAY NOT GET AS HUNGRY. 655 00:40:07,967 --> 00:40:09,267 WHEN YOU EAT CARBS, 656 00:40:09,267 --> 00:40:11,733 A LOT OF TIMES YOUR INSULIN GOES WAY UP. 657 00:40:11,733 --> 00:40:13,367 IT BRINGS YOUR BLOOD SUGAR DOWN, 658 00:40:13,367 --> 00:40:15,200 AND YOU'RE HUNGRY AGAIN. 659 00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:17,200 ALL RIGHT, SO, I THINK, TO MAKE IT EASY FOR YOU, 660 00:40:17,200 --> 00:40:19,267 LET'S GET SOME OF THIS FOOD OUT OF THE HOUSE. 661 00:40:19,267 --> 00:40:21,833 OKAY. I KNOW YOU'RE NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT. 662 00:40:25,667 --> 00:40:29,433 LET'S SEE WHAT WE GOT HERE. WE GOT THE HERSHEY'S. 663 00:40:35,900 --> 00:40:37,767 AND THESE PRETZELS. 664 00:40:37,767 --> 00:40:40,833 WE'VE GOT SOME FRIES. 665 00:40:40,833 --> 00:40:42,800 ALL RIGHT, SO, IT LOOKS LIKE WE GOT THE FREEZER 666 00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:44,200 PRETTY CLEARED UP. 667 00:40:44,200 --> 00:40:46,867 TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME. 668 00:40:46,867 --> 00:40:48,600 IT'S A LOT OF CHANGES TO MAKE. 669 00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:51,033 BUT NOT HAVING THE FOODS IN THE HOUSE, 670 00:40:51,033 --> 00:40:53,467 WILL THAT MAKE IT EASIER? YES. 671 00:40:53,467 --> 00:40:56,500 ALL RIGHT, SO I'M PUTTING THESE IN THE TRASH. 672 00:40:56,500 --> 00:41:00,333 AND I KNOW THIS IS HARD FOR YOU, BUT IT'S GONNA BE EASIER. 673 00:41:00,333 --> 00:41:02,867 TAKE CARE. 674 00:41:05,967 --> 00:41:10,600 Erica: I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE JUST WASTED ALL THAT FOOD. 675 00:41:10,600 --> 00:41:13,467 I'M SO FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. 676 00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:16,733 BUT I CAN JUST ORDER MORE, 677 00:41:16,733 --> 00:41:18,400 AND THERE'S NOTHING SHE CAN REALLY DO 678 00:41:18,400 --> 00:41:21,967 TO STOP ME FROM DOING THAT, 679 00:41:21,967 --> 00:41:24,600 SO SHE COMPLETELY WASTED HER TIME. 680 00:41:26,600 --> 00:41:30,133 THIS IS JUST SO MUCH HARDER THAN I HAD EVER IMAGINED. 681 00:41:38,567 --> 00:41:41,200 EVER SINCE I'VE BEEN ALMOST IMMOBILE, 682 00:41:41,200 --> 00:41:43,233 I NEVER SEE MY FAMILY. 683 00:41:47,067 --> 00:41:50,700 I JUST DON'T GO OUT, AND MY FAMILY DOESN'T COME TO SEE ME. 684 00:41:50,700 --> 00:41:53,233 OH. 685 00:41:55,567 --> 00:41:57,067 DAD? 686 00:41:57,067 --> 00:41:59,500 CAN YOU HELP PULL HER OUT REAL QUICK? 687 00:41:59,500 --> 00:42:02,333 SINCE I'VE BEEN BACK, I'VE BEEN ALONE. 688 00:42:02,333 --> 00:42:04,733 BUT I WORKED UP THE COURAGE AND ASKED MY BROTHER 689 00:42:04,733 --> 00:42:08,800 IF I COULD GO OVER TO HIS PLACE TO SEE THE FAMILY FOR DINNER. 690 00:42:08,800 --> 00:42:11,367 -HI. I'M HAVING SOME TROUBLE. -HI. 691 00:42:11,367 --> 00:42:14,233 SOME ISSUES? GRAB MY ARM. 692 00:42:14,233 --> 00:42:16,067 ONE, TWO, THREE. 693 00:42:16,067 --> 00:42:19,633 THERE WE GO. 694 00:42:19,633 --> 00:42:21,600 OW. 695 00:42:21,600 --> 00:42:23,700 I TOLD HIM I JUST WANTED TO GET OUT 696 00:42:23,700 --> 00:42:27,133 AND THAT I MISSED EVERYONE. 697 00:42:27,133 --> 00:42:28,867 BUT WHAT I REALLY NEED TO DO 698 00:42:28,867 --> 00:42:32,867 IS ASK IF SOMEONE WILL MOVE TO HOUSTON WITH ME. 699 00:42:32,867 --> 00:42:37,133 BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY. 700 00:42:37,133 --> 00:42:39,733 SO... 701 00:42:39,733 --> 00:42:42,667 I FOUND THIS DOCTOR IN HOUSTON 702 00:42:42,667 --> 00:42:47,067 THAT MIGHT BE WILLING TO HELP ME. 703 00:42:47,067 --> 00:42:52,567 WELL, WHAT IS THE BIG TICKET ABOUT THIS DOCTOR IN HOUSTON? 704 00:42:52,567 --> 00:42:55,333 IS HE YOUR LAST HOPE? 705 00:42:55,333 --> 00:42:58,167 HE'S ABSOLUTELY MY LAST HOPE. 706 00:43:00,367 --> 00:43:04,800 I THINK HE'S GOING TO ASK ME TO MOVE TO HOUSTON, 707 00:43:04,800 --> 00:43:08,600 AND NOW I NEED MY FAMILY 708 00:43:08,600 --> 00:43:11,833 TO STEP IN. 709 00:43:11,833 --> 00:43:12,900 OKAY. 710 00:43:12,900 --> 00:43:15,333 I NEED SOMEONE TO STAY WITH ME 711 00:43:15,333 --> 00:43:18,567 UNTIL I'M MOBILE AND INDEPENDENT ENOUGH 712 00:43:18,567 --> 00:43:22,233 TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. 713 00:43:22,233 --> 00:43:26,067 SO THEN, YOU GOT THE TAB FOR MY BOAT? 714 00:43:26,067 --> 00:43:28,567 I MEAN, IT'S MY LIVELIHOOD. 715 00:43:28,567 --> 00:43:30,733 HOW MUCH IS IT TO PARK YOUR BOAT? 716 00:43:30,733 --> 00:43:32,767 FOR HOW LONG? 717 00:43:32,767 --> 00:43:35,567 AT THE MINIMUM, SIX MONTHS. 718 00:43:35,567 --> 00:43:38,967 OKAY, YEAH, LET ME JUST CHUCK MY LIVELIHOOD AWAY 719 00:43:38,967 --> 00:43:40,767 AND JUST THROW IT AWAY. 720 00:43:45,233 --> 00:43:47,200 I'M JUST GONNA SAY IT. 721 00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:50,800 BOAT... YOU'RE SISTER DYING. 722 00:43:50,800 --> 00:43:53,700 YOU WANT ME TO JUST THROW IT AWAY? 723 00:43:53,700 --> 00:43:57,433 DO YOU WANNA BURY YOUR SISTER BY THE END OF THIS YEAR? 724 00:43:57,433 --> 00:44:00,167 WOW. WOW. YOU'RE STRONG-ARMING ME. OH. 725 00:44:00,167 --> 00:44:04,267 -NO. -DID I DO WHAT YOU DID? 726 00:44:04,267 --> 00:44:08,367 NO. I DID THIS. 727 00:44:08,367 --> 00:44:11,400 BUT I NEED YOU. 728 00:44:11,400 --> 00:44:13,367 THERE'S NOTHING ELSE YOU CAN DO? 729 00:44:13,367 --> 00:44:14,700 NO. 730 00:44:14,700 --> 00:44:17,367 WITHOUT THIS DOCTOR IN HOUSTON, 731 00:44:17,367 --> 00:44:22,267 I WILL FOR SURE DIE. 732 00:44:22,267 --> 00:44:24,567 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT IT, ERICA. 733 00:44:24,567 --> 00:44:28,733 OF COURSE I LOVE YOU, AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE. 734 00:44:28,733 --> 00:44:32,833 BUT I NEED MY BOAT. 735 00:44:35,667 --> 00:44:39,400 I THINK IT'S GOOD THAT YOU LET US KNOW. 736 00:44:39,400 --> 00:44:41,133 THAT WAY, WE KNOW WHAT YOU NEED. 737 00:44:41,133 --> 00:44:43,800 AND STARTING TONIGHT, WE'LL FIGURE OUT... 738 00:44:43,800 --> 00:44:45,400 COME UP WITH A GAME PLAN. 739 00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:48,300 ...WHAT WE CAN DO. OKAY? 740 00:44:48,300 --> 00:44:50,733 TOTALLY OPEN, BUT RUNNING OUT OF TIME. 741 00:44:53,433 --> 00:44:57,533 Erica: I CAN'T DO THIS BY MYSELF. 742 00:44:57,533 --> 00:45:01,667 BUT I DON'T WANNA DIE BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. 743 00:45:01,667 --> 00:45:03,767 I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. 744 00:45:10,067 --> 00:45:12,200 ** 745 00:45:26,733 --> 00:45:29,133 Erica: I MISSED MY DOCTOR'S VISIT THIS MONTH 746 00:45:29,133 --> 00:45:33,900 BECAUSE NO ONE IS WILLING TO GO WITH ME OR HELP ME. 747 00:45:33,900 --> 00:45:36,100 I'VE WORKED HARD, BUT I HAVE NO IDEA 748 00:45:36,100 --> 00:45:38,967 IF I'M MAKING PROGRESS OR WHAT I WEIGH RIGHT NOW. 749 00:45:41,467 --> 00:45:42,700 I FEEL LIKE I'M TRYING, 750 00:45:42,700 --> 00:45:44,700 BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE POINT IS 751 00:45:44,700 --> 00:45:48,500 BECAUSE I HAVE NO ONE THAT'S GOING TO HELP ME. 752 00:45:48,500 --> 00:45:52,833 I BEGGED MY BROTHER AND I BEGGED MY SISTER AGAIN. 753 00:45:52,833 --> 00:45:56,333 THE ONLY THING SHE SAID SHE'D DO WAS COME OVER AND MAKE SURE 754 00:45:56,333 --> 00:45:58,767 THAT I'M COMPLYING WITH THE DIET, 755 00:45:58,767 --> 00:46:01,300 BUT I DON'T NEED HER FOR THAT. 756 00:46:01,300 --> 00:46:04,167 I NEED HER TO HELP ME GET SURGERY. 757 00:46:04,167 --> 00:46:07,067 IT LOOKS A LOT BETTER THAN THE LAST TIME I WAS HERE. 758 00:46:10,067 --> 00:46:12,267 OH, MY GOSH! 759 00:46:16,167 --> 00:46:18,467 GOOD! IT LOOKS A LOT BETTER. 760 00:46:18,467 --> 00:46:21,267 I'M ACTUALLY KIND OF IMPRESSED. 761 00:46:21,267 --> 00:46:23,100 WHAT'D YOU DO WITH ALL THE FOOD? 762 00:46:25,467 --> 00:46:27,800 HOW ARE YOU FEELING? 763 00:46:27,800 --> 00:46:29,767 I'VE BEEN BETTER. 764 00:46:29,767 --> 00:46:32,067 WHAT'S GOING ON? 765 00:46:32,067 --> 00:46:34,200 I'M STRUGGLING. 766 00:46:34,200 --> 00:46:38,133 WELL, WOULD YOU LIKE TO QUIT? 767 00:46:38,133 --> 00:46:39,400 SOME DAYS. 768 00:46:39,400 --> 00:46:41,533 AND YOU JUST WANNA STAY IN THIS BED? 769 00:46:41,533 --> 00:46:43,667 SOME DAYS. 770 00:46:43,667 --> 00:46:46,933 IT'S BEEN, LIKE, THREE WEEKS WITHOUT PITA CHIPS AND HUMMUS 771 00:46:46,933 --> 00:46:50,233 AND THREE WEEKS WITHOUT CHOCOLATE FUDGE CAKE EVERY DAY. 772 00:46:50,233 --> 00:46:52,267 YOU CAN HAVE HUMMUS... 773 00:46:52,267 --> 00:46:54,133 NO, I CANNOT. ...WITH VEGETABLES. 774 00:46:54,133 --> 00:46:55,600 I DON'T EAT VEGETABLES. 775 00:46:55,600 --> 00:46:58,600 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO LEARN TO EAT VEGETABLES. 776 00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:01,133 LITERALLY COMES BACK UP. 777 00:47:01,133 --> 00:47:02,967 AND I'M ALSO MAD 'CAUSE EVERYBODY ELSE 778 00:47:02,967 --> 00:47:04,433 GETS TO EAT THE WAY THEY WANT. 779 00:47:04,433 --> 00:47:06,267 -WHO? -EVERYBODY THAT I KNOW. 780 00:47:06,267 --> 00:47:09,233 WE'RE NOT 600 POUNDS! 781 00:47:09,233 --> 00:47:10,567 IT'S ALL OVER BILLBOARDS. 782 00:47:10,567 --> 00:47:12,167 IT'S ALL OVER EVERY TV COMMERCIAL. 783 00:47:12,167 --> 00:47:14,267 YOU CAN'T GO ANYWHERE. 784 00:47:14,267 --> 00:47:16,233 MAYBE WHEN YOU LOSE A FEW HUNDRED POUNDS, 785 00:47:16,233 --> 00:47:19,400 YOU CAN TREAT YOURSELF TO THAT, BUT NOT EVERY DAY. 786 00:47:19,400 --> 00:47:23,900 THAT'S BEEN YOUR LIFESTYLE. THAT'S WHY YOU ARE 600 POUNDS. 787 00:47:23,900 --> 00:47:26,367 WELL, I'M TRYING, BUT IT'S A LOT HARDER 788 00:47:26,367 --> 00:47:27,700 THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE. 789 00:47:27,700 --> 00:47:30,067 YOU DIDN'T THINK IT WAS GONNA BE THIS HARD? SERIOUS? 790 00:47:30,067 --> 00:47:31,567 WELL, I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA HAVE, 791 00:47:31,567 --> 00:47:34,067 LIKE, MORE, YOU KNOW... 792 00:47:34,067 --> 00:47:36,567 MORE WHAT? I DON'T KNOW. 793 00:47:36,567 --> 00:47:38,600 -MORE LOVE AND FAMILY SUPPORT? -STOP YELLING AT ME. 794 00:47:38,600 --> 00:47:40,833 -I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS. -STOP -- STOP YELLING AT ME. 795 00:47:40,833 --> 00:47:42,933 WELL, I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE ANSWER IS TO THAT QUESTION. 796 00:47:42,933 --> 00:47:46,200 I FEEL LIKE I'M IN IT ALL ALONE. 797 00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:47,967 YOU'RE BEING MEAN RIGHT NOW. 798 00:47:47,967 --> 00:47:50,367 -YOU'RE YELLING AT ME. -'CAUSE YOU HURT MY FEELINGS. 799 00:47:50,367 --> 00:47:55,267 WELL, I HURT YOUR FEELINGS BECAUSE I TOLD YOU THE TRUTH. 800 00:47:55,267 --> 00:47:57,800 I USED TO GO EAT ABOUT IT AND GET OVER IT 801 00:47:57,800 --> 00:47:59,800 SO I WOULDN'T BE MEAN, AND NOW I CAN'T. 802 00:47:59,800 --> 00:48:01,867 OH, SO YOU CAN JUST YELL AT ME INSTEAD? 803 00:48:01,867 --> 00:48:04,400 NO, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO COPE NOW. 804 00:48:04,400 --> 00:48:06,533 NOW YOU NEED TO TURN TO SOMETHING ELSE. 805 00:48:06,533 --> 00:48:09,067 -LIKE WHAT? -I DON'T KNOW. 806 00:48:09,067 --> 00:48:11,833 YOU NEED TO FIND SOMETHING AND JUST STICK TO THAT. 807 00:48:11,833 --> 00:48:14,400 LIKE I SAID, I'M TRYING THE BEST THAT I CAN WITH WHAT I HAVE. 808 00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:16,700 WELL, KEEP TRYING. 809 00:48:16,700 --> 00:48:19,600 ALL RIGHT, WELL, YOU'RE NOT THERE YET. 810 00:48:22,267 --> 00:48:23,767 I'LL BE SUPPORTIVE. 811 00:48:23,767 --> 00:48:26,967 "RAH, RAH," JUST LIKE MOM WOULD SAY. 812 00:48:26,967 --> 00:48:30,333 Erica: I FEEL LIKE JUST GIVING UP. 813 00:48:30,333 --> 00:48:33,933 AND THERE'S NOTHING ELSE I CAN DO EXCEPT WAIT FOR DEATH 814 00:48:33,933 --> 00:48:36,600 BECAUSE NO ONE WILL HELP ME. 815 00:48:50,367 --> 00:48:54,600 THIS PAST MONTH, I FELT SO OUT OF CONTROL AND ABANDONED. 816 00:48:54,600 --> 00:48:56,467 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. 817 00:49:00,733 --> 00:49:03,133 SO, I SCHEDULED A CALL WITH DR. NOW 818 00:49:03,133 --> 00:49:05,900 TO TALK TO HIM BECAUSE NO ONE WILL HELP ME. 819 00:49:13,667 --> 00:49:14,867 Dr. Nowzaradan: Hello? 820 00:49:14,867 --> 00:49:17,967 HI, DR. NOWZARADAN. THIS IS ERICA WALL. 821 00:49:17,967 --> 00:49:20,067 HI, ERICA. HOW ARE YOU DOING? 822 00:49:20,067 --> 00:49:21,733 I'm struggling with the diet. 823 00:49:21,733 --> 00:49:24,933 I'M HAVING A LOT OF ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS 824 00:49:24,933 --> 00:49:27,800 BECAUSE I WOULD ALWAYS EAT, 825 00:49:27,800 --> 00:49:30,633 AND NOW I CANNOT EAT THE WAY THAT I WANT TO EAT. 826 00:49:34,767 --> 00:49:37,300 YES. 827 00:49:43,267 --> 00:49:45,967 UM, CAN I TELL YOU THAT'S A POISON? 828 00:49:45,967 --> 00:49:48,500 I KNOW. 829 00:49:56,167 --> 00:49:57,933 OKAY. 830 00:49:57,933 --> 00:50:00,400 In the meantime, I want you to have your weight checked 831 00:50:00,400 --> 00:50:03,100 SO I CAN MONITOR YOUR PROGRESS. 832 00:50:06,400 --> 00:50:09,133 ...THEN I WANT YOU TO COME BACK TO HOUSTON. 833 00:50:09,133 --> 00:50:10,767 OKAY, DR. NOW. I'LL DO THAT. 834 00:50:10,767 --> 00:50:12,933 IF YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEMS, JUST GIVE ME A CALL. 835 00:50:12,933 --> 00:50:14,867 OKAY. THANK YOU. 836 00:50:14,867 --> 00:50:16,900 -Okay, bye-bye. -BYE-BYE. 837 00:50:18,933 --> 00:50:21,367 ERICA MISSED HER LAST APPOINTMENT, 838 00:50:21,367 --> 00:50:24,733 AND SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND THE DIET. 839 00:50:24,733 --> 00:50:28,400 BUT THE REALITY IS SHE DOESN'T WANT TO STICK TO THE DIET. 840 00:50:28,400 --> 00:50:30,933 SHE WANTS SOMEBODY ELSE TO FIX HER PROBLEMS, 841 00:50:30,933 --> 00:50:33,500 AND THAT'S NOT GOING TO WORK. 842 00:50:33,500 --> 00:50:35,267 THERE IS NO POINT FOR HER 843 00:50:35,267 --> 00:50:37,267 TO MAKE THE JOURNEY DOWN HERE 844 00:50:37,267 --> 00:50:40,000 IF SHE HAS NOT LOST WEIGHT. 845 00:50:40,000 --> 00:50:43,033 SO, WE'LL FIND A WAY TO CHECK HER WEIGHT THERE, 846 00:50:43,033 --> 00:50:44,867 AND WE'LL SEE. 847 00:50:44,867 --> 00:50:47,867 BUT RIGHT NOW WE HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO WITH HER. 848 00:50:58,700 --> 00:51:01,133 Erica: DR. NOW'S THERAPIST HE FOUND FOR ME 849 00:51:01,133 --> 00:51:02,700 IS COMING OVER TODAY, 850 00:51:02,700 --> 00:51:06,067 AND I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL. 851 00:51:06,067 --> 00:51:09,500 TALKING TO A STRANGER ABOUT MY LIFE IS JUST A WASTE, 852 00:51:09,500 --> 00:51:11,667 BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY THEY CAN UNDERSTAND 853 00:51:11,667 --> 00:51:13,800 EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN THROUGH, 854 00:51:13,800 --> 00:51:16,067 SO I JUST DON'T SEE THE POINT. 855 00:51:16,067 --> 00:51:18,400 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 856 00:51:18,400 --> 00:51:20,100 HEY, MISS ERICA. HOW ARE YOU? 857 00:51:20,100 --> 00:51:22,067 I'M OKAY. HOW ARE YOU? 858 00:51:22,067 --> 00:51:23,267 I'M GOOD! 859 00:51:23,267 --> 00:51:26,533 SO, I ACTUALLY WAS REFERRED TO YOU BY DR. NOWZARADAN. 860 00:51:26,533 --> 00:51:28,800 WHY DO YOU THINK HE REFERRED ME TO YOU? 861 00:51:28,800 --> 00:51:30,133 I'M NOT SURE. 862 00:51:30,133 --> 00:51:31,400 WOULD IT BE SURPRISING IF I TOLD YOU 863 00:51:31,400 --> 00:51:34,067 I HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY? 864 00:51:34,067 --> 00:51:35,700 -YES. -I DID. 865 00:51:35,700 --> 00:51:37,067 I HAD THE GASTRIC BYPASS. 866 00:51:37,067 --> 00:51:40,200 SO, I KNOW WHOLEHEARTEDLY HOW THIS FEELS. 867 00:51:40,200 --> 00:51:42,267 WELL, LET'S START WITH HOW DO WE GET TO THIS POINT. 868 00:51:42,267 --> 00:51:45,133 TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT HOW YOU GOT HERE. 869 00:51:45,133 --> 00:51:48,600 WELL, I JUST EAT WAY TOO MUCH OF ALL THE FOODS THAT I LOVE. 870 00:51:48,600 --> 00:51:51,967 I'M JUST REALLY ANGRY AT MYSELF 871 00:51:51,967 --> 00:51:56,067 FOR LETTING ME GET TO THIS SIDE OF IT. 872 00:51:56,067 --> 00:51:57,633 MM-HMM. SO MAKE IT UP TO YOURSELF 873 00:51:57,633 --> 00:52:00,367 BY GETTING YOU TO THE OTHER SIDE OF IT. 874 00:52:00,367 --> 00:52:04,400 THAT'S A LOT OF STUFF YOU GOTTA GO THROUGH 875 00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:06,667 TO GET TO THE GOOD SIDE OF IT. 876 00:52:06,667 --> 00:52:08,067 YEAH. AND? 877 00:52:08,067 --> 00:52:11,200 I DON'T REALLY LIKE BEING UNCOMFORTABLE. 878 00:52:11,200 --> 00:52:12,500 ARE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE RIGHT NOW? 879 00:52:12,500 --> 00:52:13,667 YES. 880 00:52:13,667 --> 00:52:15,433 AND GUESS WHAT. NOTHING'S HAPPENING. 881 00:52:15,433 --> 00:52:16,800 -RIGHT. -YOU'RE FINE. 882 00:52:16,800 --> 00:52:18,300 MM-HMM. 883 00:52:18,300 --> 00:52:20,567 GOING THROUGH THIS PROCESS IS GOING TO CREATE MORE PROBLEMS, 884 00:52:20,567 --> 00:52:24,200 BECAUSE IT DREDGES UP THE STUFF THAT YOU DON'T WANNA DEAL WITH. 885 00:52:24,200 --> 00:52:26,267 YOU START GETTING MORE ANGRY THAN YOU WERE BEFORE 886 00:52:26,267 --> 00:52:28,700 BECAUSE YOU'RE GOING WITHOUT YOUR COPING MECHANISM 887 00:52:28,700 --> 00:52:30,433 WHICH IS FOOD, RIGHT? OKAY. 888 00:52:30,433 --> 00:52:33,067 SO, NOW WE HAVE THE WEIGHT, THE MEDICAL PROBLEMS, 889 00:52:33,067 --> 00:52:34,933 AND NOW MORE EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS. 890 00:52:34,933 --> 00:52:37,733 YES. SO, WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO TALK ABOUT IT? 891 00:52:37,733 --> 00:52:40,133 BECAUSE UNTIL YOU GO THROUGH IT, 892 00:52:40,133 --> 00:52:42,133 UNTIL YOU TALK ABOUT IT, 893 00:52:42,133 --> 00:52:45,367 WE CANNOT GET TO THE OTHER SIDE. 894 00:52:45,367 --> 00:52:48,433 IT'S JUST BEEN BURIED FOR SO MANY YEARS. 895 00:52:48,433 --> 00:52:51,067 SO, WHEN ARE YOU GONNA BE TIRED OF IT? 896 00:52:51,067 --> 00:52:52,533 DO YOU SEE HOW ALL OF THAT BAGGAGE 897 00:52:52,533 --> 00:52:54,267 IS KEEPING YOU WHERE YOU ARE? 898 00:52:54,267 --> 00:52:56,067 -YEAH. -TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON. 899 00:52:56,067 --> 00:52:58,833 BE UNCOMFORTABLE. 900 00:52:58,833 --> 00:53:02,467 UM... 901 00:53:02,467 --> 00:53:04,533 THE AGE OF 16, 902 00:53:04,533 --> 00:53:08,133 I HAD MY VERY FIRST BOYFRIEND OR WHATEVER, 903 00:53:08,133 --> 00:53:14,067 AND I MADE THE DECISION TO SAY YES TO HIM. 904 00:53:14,067 --> 00:53:19,833 HE TRICKED ME AND... 905 00:53:19,833 --> 00:53:23,500 I DID NOT SAY YES TO HIS BEST FRIEND 906 00:53:23,500 --> 00:53:26,400 THAT WENT RIGHT AFTER HIM, OR HIS COUSIN, 907 00:53:26,400 --> 00:53:30,933 OR THE THREE THAT WENT AFTER THEM. 908 00:53:30,933 --> 00:53:32,833 HMM. I UNDERSTAND. 909 00:53:32,833 --> 00:53:36,667 THIS IS NOT YOUR SHAME TO CARRY, YOU REALIZE. 910 00:53:36,667 --> 00:53:41,133 HOW DO YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW AFTER TELLING ME THAT STORY? 911 00:53:41,133 --> 00:53:42,900 -GUILTY. -THAT HAPPENED TO YOU, ERICA. 912 00:53:42,900 --> 00:53:44,967 AND IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. 913 00:53:44,967 --> 00:53:46,567 SOMETHING HAPPENED IN YOUR PAST 914 00:53:46,567 --> 00:53:48,267 THAT MADE ME YOU SO UNCOMFORTABLE, 915 00:53:48,267 --> 00:53:50,200 YOU'RE LIKE, "I AM NEVER GETTING UNCOMFORTABLE AGAIN." 916 00:53:50,200 --> 00:53:52,300 -EXACTLY. -BUT GUESS WHAT. 917 00:53:52,300 --> 00:53:54,767 THERE'S ACTUALLY A HEALTHY UNCOMFORTABLE 918 00:53:54,767 --> 00:53:56,933 AND AN UNHEALTHY UNCOMFORTABLE. 919 00:53:56,933 --> 00:53:59,067 THE UNHEALTHY UNCOMFORTABLE IS WHEN THERE'S TRAUMA -- 920 00:53:59,067 --> 00:54:00,600 YOU JUST NAILED IT RIGHT THERE. 921 00:54:00,600 --> 00:54:02,567 WHEN WE'RE VIOLATED, RIGHT? 922 00:54:02,567 --> 00:54:05,600 YOU HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO BE HEALTHILY UNCOMFORTABLE. 923 00:54:08,800 --> 00:54:10,333 WHAT'S YOUR URGE LIKE RIGHT NOW, 924 00:54:10,333 --> 00:54:12,067 AS FAR AS YOUR FOOD IS CONCERNED, 925 00:54:12,067 --> 00:54:14,367 AS YOU SIT IN THIS VERY UNCOMFORTABLE MOMENT? 926 00:54:16,533 --> 00:54:18,167 I'M JUST NUMB. 927 00:54:18,167 --> 00:54:19,800 DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? 928 00:54:19,800 --> 00:54:21,167 NOPE. 929 00:54:21,167 --> 00:54:22,767 ARE YOU WILLING TO JOURNAL? 930 00:54:22,767 --> 00:54:24,467 AS FAR AS WHAT? 931 00:54:24,467 --> 00:54:26,300 I WANNA KNOW IT ALL, 932 00:54:26,300 --> 00:54:28,800 BECAUSE YOU'RE GONNA START HAVING A VOICE. 933 00:54:28,800 --> 00:54:30,100 CAN WE DO THOSE THINGS? 934 00:54:30,100 --> 00:54:31,667 YES. 935 00:54:31,667 --> 00:54:33,867 OKAY, SO WE'RE GONNA BE IN TOUCH. 936 00:54:33,867 --> 00:54:35,700 -OKAY. -THIS IS THE BEGINNING. 937 00:54:35,700 --> 00:54:38,733 REMEMBER, I CAN'T WANT THIS MORE THAN YOU DO. 938 00:54:38,733 --> 00:54:40,433 GOT IT. 939 00:54:40,433 --> 00:54:41,967 [ CHUCKLES ] 940 00:54:41,967 --> 00:54:44,267 OH, GOODNESS. 941 00:54:46,767 --> 00:54:48,200 -YOU'RE AWESOME. -THANK YOU. 942 00:54:48,200 --> 00:54:50,267 -YOU ARE TOO. THANK YOU. -WE'LL TALK SOON. 943 00:54:50,267 --> 00:54:51,833 OKAY. THANK YOU. 944 00:54:51,833 --> 00:54:55,433 YOU'RE WELCOME. 945 00:54:55,433 --> 00:54:57,167 Erica: I DON'T WANNA KEEP FEELING GUILTY 946 00:54:57,167 --> 00:55:00,267 FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO ME 947 00:55:00,267 --> 00:55:03,067 AND HOW I'VE ENDED UP. 948 00:55:03,067 --> 00:55:06,867 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M EVER NOT GOING TO FEEL THAT WAY, 949 00:55:06,867 --> 00:55:11,267 SO IT REALLY JUST FEELS LIKE A LOST CAUSE. 950 00:55:11,267 --> 00:55:12,733 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, 951 00:55:12,733 --> 00:55:14,633 I KNOW IF I DON'T FIGURE THIS ALL OUT, 952 00:55:14,633 --> 00:55:18,167 NOTHING'S GOING TO CHANGE, 953 00:55:18,167 --> 00:55:21,167 AND I'M NOT GONNA BE AROUND MUCH LONGER. 954 00:55:27,100 --> 00:55:29,067 ** 955 00:55:55,067 --> 00:55:57,967 Erica: TODAY, I'M GOING TO SEE WHAT I WEIGH. 956 00:55:59,567 --> 00:56:02,100 DR. NOW WANTED ME TO GET MY WEIGHT CHECKED, 957 00:56:02,100 --> 00:56:04,167 AND I'VE BEEN SCARED TO DO THAT. 958 00:56:04,167 --> 00:56:08,633 AND I ASKED HIM FOR MORE TIME TO STICK TO THE DIET, 959 00:56:08,633 --> 00:56:10,733 SO I'VE BEEN REALLY TRYING. 960 00:56:13,500 --> 00:56:17,233 I STARTED JOURNALING LIKE THE THERAPIST WANTED. 961 00:56:18,633 --> 00:56:20,633 I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S REALLY HELPED, 962 00:56:20,633 --> 00:56:22,800 BUT IT'S BEEN NICE TO GET SOME THINGS OUT. 963 00:56:22,800 --> 00:56:25,333 OH, WHERE IS IT? 964 00:56:28,733 --> 00:56:30,067 ARE YOU GONNA GO THERE? 965 00:56:30,067 --> 00:56:31,533 -NOPE. SEE YOU LATER. -NO! 966 00:56:31,533 --> 00:56:34,833 HAVE A GOOD TIME! [ LAUGHS ] 967 00:56:34,833 --> 00:56:36,267 I HAVEN'T BEEN PERFECT, 968 00:56:36,267 --> 00:56:39,267 BUT I'VE BEEN REALLY TRYING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 969 00:56:39,267 --> 00:56:42,200 AND NOW I REALLY WANNA KNOW WHAT I WEIGH. 970 00:56:46,200 --> 00:56:49,733 I JUST HOPE EVERYTHING I'M DOING IS GOING TO PAY OFF 971 00:56:49,733 --> 00:56:53,067 AND I'M NOT JUST WASTING MY TIME. 972 00:56:53,067 --> 00:56:55,533 Man: ALL RIGHT. THIS IS GONNA BE THE BIG MOMENT. 973 00:56:55,533 --> 00:56:59,167 Erica: SO I'M REALLY SCARED TO FIND OUT WHAT I WEIGH. 974 00:56:59,167 --> 00:57:02,600 LIGHT BUMP. 975 00:57:02,600 --> 00:57:07,300 WE CAN BOTH JUST TAKE AN ARM AND HELP HER UP. 976 00:57:07,300 --> 00:57:10,933 I WANT TO DO THIS, AND I DON'T WANNA KEEP LIVING THIS WAY 977 00:57:10,933 --> 00:57:14,733 AND PROVE MY FAMILY RIGHT, THAT I CAN'T CHANGE. 978 00:57:17,067 --> 00:57:20,600 OKAY, RIGHT HERE. 979 00:57:20,600 --> 00:57:22,667 -I'M DR. JONAS. -HI, DR. JONAS. 980 00:57:22,667 --> 00:57:24,800 -I'M ERICA. NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 981 00:57:24,800 --> 00:57:26,833 I UNDERSTAND YOU'RE HERE TO WEIGH IN TODAY. 982 00:57:26,833 --> 00:57:28,733 -YES. -AND WHAT ARE YOU SHOOTING FOR? 983 00:57:28,733 --> 00:57:32,433 THE DOCTOR WANTS ME TO HAVE LOST 50 POUNDS. 984 00:57:32,433 --> 00:57:34,233 OKAY, WELL, LET'S SEE WHAT IT IS. 985 00:57:34,233 --> 00:57:36,767 OKAY. 986 00:57:46,433 --> 00:57:47,867 [ BEEPING ] 987 00:57:47,867 --> 00:57:49,800 [ GASPS ] 988 00:57:49,800 --> 00:57:51,600 -ROB! -WHAT? 989 00:57:51,600 --> 00:57:55,133 LOOK! 990 00:57:55,133 --> 00:57:57,367 FROM 661. 991 00:57:57,367 --> 00:57:58,600 THAT'S GOOD, YEAH? 992 00:57:58,600 --> 00:58:00,867 [ LAUGHS ] 993 00:58:00,867 --> 00:58:04,133 I THINK IT'S GOOD. 994 00:58:04,133 --> 00:58:07,267 LET'S GO CELEBRATE, HUH? 995 00:58:07,267 --> 00:58:09,433 GOOD JOB. 996 00:58:09,433 --> 00:58:12,100 -HAPPY? -YEAH. 997 00:58:12,100 --> 00:58:14,267 SO, NOW YOU'RE A CANDIDATE, RIGHT? 998 00:58:14,267 --> 00:58:16,800 I DON'T KNOW. MAYBE. 999 00:58:16,800 --> 00:58:19,867 THIS IS PROBABLY THE MOST YOU'VE EVER LOST, HUH? 1000 00:58:19,867 --> 00:58:22,533 THAT'S GOOD. GOOD JOB. 1001 00:58:22,533 --> 00:58:24,767 OH, MY GOD. 1002 00:58:27,767 --> 00:58:29,433 TAKE CARE AND GOOD LUCK. 1003 00:58:29,433 --> 00:58:31,300 THANK YOU. THANK YOU. 1004 00:58:31,300 --> 00:58:34,200 I'M SO EXCITED RIGHT NOW. 1005 00:58:34,200 --> 00:58:36,467 AND I HOPE DR. NOW HEARS ABOUT THIS 1006 00:58:36,467 --> 00:58:41,067 AND BELIEVES IN ME AND APPROVES ME FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1007 00:58:54,767 --> 00:58:57,400 I TOLD DR. NOW ABOUT MY WEIGHT LOSS, 1008 00:58:57,400 --> 00:59:00,733 AND HE WAS VERY HAPPY, SO HE APPROVED ME 1009 00:59:00,733 --> 00:59:03,133 FOR MORE TREATMENT DOWN IN HOUSTON. 1010 00:59:05,900 --> 00:59:08,067 BUT HE WASN'T SURE WHAT KIND OF SURGERY 1011 00:59:08,067 --> 00:59:11,767 HE COULD DO ON ME BECAUSE OF MY STOMACH STAPLING, 1012 00:59:11,767 --> 00:59:14,867 AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO EXPECT 1013 00:59:14,867 --> 00:59:18,067 OR IF I'M EVEN GETTING ANY SURGERY. 1014 00:59:18,067 --> 00:59:20,767 BUT I STILL HAVE TO COMMIT TO MOVE DOWN THERE. 1015 00:59:20,767 --> 00:59:22,167 ERICA? 1016 00:59:22,167 --> 00:59:24,600 -HI, MOLLY. -YOU READY? 1017 00:59:24,600 --> 00:59:29,400 Erica: MY SISTER AND MY BROTHER STILL WON'T STAY WITH ME, 1018 00:59:29,400 --> 00:59:32,167 BUT MOLLY'S GONNA HELP ME MOVE DOWN THERE. 1019 00:59:32,167 --> 00:59:34,267 Molly: DO YOU WANNA JUST TAKE THOSE AND PUT THEM IN THE CAR, 1020 00:59:34,267 --> 00:59:35,667 AND MAYBE TAKE THEM IF WE NEED THEM? 1021 00:59:35,667 --> 00:59:37,467 -OKAY. -OKAY. 1022 00:59:37,467 --> 00:59:42,600 I MEAN, WHAT'S A PAIR OF SHOES WITH 17 BAGS? 1023 00:59:42,600 --> 00:59:44,267 Erica: I'M TRYING TO GET MY LIFE BACK, 1024 00:59:44,267 --> 00:59:48,067 AND I FEEL LIKE NO ONE REALLY SUPPORTS ME OR BELIEVES IN ME. 1025 00:59:48,067 --> 00:59:51,200 COME ON. 1026 00:59:51,200 --> 00:59:52,667 AND THAT MAKES IT SO MUCH HARDER 1027 00:59:52,667 --> 00:59:55,800 TO TRY AND DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS. 1028 00:59:55,800 --> 00:59:59,500 YOU LOVE ME TODAY? 1029 00:59:59,500 --> 01:00:00,867 I LOVE YOU, RYAN. 1030 01:00:00,867 --> 01:00:02,100 Molly: LET'S GO. 1031 01:00:07,533 --> 01:00:08,767 GET IN. 1032 01:00:08,767 --> 01:00:10,600 YOU KNOW, IF WE JUST LEAVE ALL YOUR BAGS HERE, 1033 01:00:10,600 --> 01:00:13,133 YOU'LL FIGURE IT OUT. 1034 01:00:16,733 --> 01:00:18,767 GOD. AH! 1035 01:00:18,767 --> 01:00:23,300 THIS IS GREAT. [BLEEP] OKAY. 1036 01:00:23,300 --> 01:00:26,133 YOU SHOULD PROBABLY SHUT ME IN! 1037 01:00:26,133 --> 01:00:28,267 OKAY, I'D LOVE TO. 1038 01:00:34,200 --> 01:00:35,667 BETTER NOT GET ON MY SEAT. 1039 01:00:35,667 --> 01:00:38,500 I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN, AND WE HAVEN'T EVEN LEFT YET. 1040 01:00:47,700 --> 01:00:51,233 Molly: NOBODY HAS THIS MUCH CRAP. 1041 01:00:51,233 --> 01:00:54,700 Erica: I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW, 1042 01:00:54,700 --> 01:00:57,967 AND I'M JUST REALLY HOPING THIS ISN'T A HUGE MISTAKE. 1043 01:01:03,800 --> 01:01:05,867 ** 1044 01:01:21,567 --> 01:01:24,233 I'M VERY HUNGRY, AND I'M VERY TIRED. 1045 01:01:24,233 --> 01:01:26,333 AND MY BODY HURTS. 1046 01:01:26,333 --> 01:01:28,533 AND I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP. 1047 01:01:30,700 --> 01:01:33,367 READY? ONE, TWO, THREE. 1048 01:01:33,367 --> 01:01:35,900 OH, CRAP. 1049 01:01:39,533 --> 01:01:42,067 AND DOWN. 1050 01:01:44,467 --> 01:01:46,800 Erica: NO HUMAN BEING SHOULD HAVE TO EXPERIENCE 1051 01:01:46,800 --> 01:01:51,100 THIS AMOUNT OF PAIN, THIS TYPE OF PAIN. 1052 01:01:55,900 --> 01:01:58,267 IT'S THE WRONG-SIZED BED. 1053 01:01:58,267 --> 01:02:00,433 SO, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? 1054 01:02:00,433 --> 01:02:02,167 I DON'T KNOW. I'M... 1055 01:02:02,167 --> 01:02:04,433 -I'M OUT OF IT RIGHT NOW. -ALL RIGHT. 1056 01:02:04,433 --> 01:02:07,867 WELL, LET'S GO GET YOUR 15 EFFING BAGS. 1057 01:02:07,867 --> 01:02:09,600 'CAUSE YOU'RE STAYING HERE, WHETHER YOU'RE SITTING 1058 01:02:09,600 --> 01:02:11,667 ON THAT DAMN COUCH ALL NIGHT, OR SOMEWHERE. 1059 01:02:11,667 --> 01:02:14,167 YOU'RE STAYING HERE. 1060 01:02:14,167 --> 01:02:16,700 LEAVE IT RIGHT THERE. 1061 01:02:21,267 --> 01:02:23,167 WE NEED TO MOVE THE BED TO THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 1062 01:02:23,167 --> 01:02:24,667 OH, YOU MADE A DECISION? 1063 01:02:24,667 --> 01:02:26,067 I DON'T KNOW HOW... 1064 01:02:26,067 --> 01:02:28,100 I DON'T KNOW HOW'D YOU BE ABLE TO MOVE IT 1065 01:02:28,100 --> 01:02:29,367 'CAUSE THE WINDOW'S RIGHT THERE. 1066 01:02:29,367 --> 01:02:31,300 YOU CAN MOVE IT IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW. 1067 01:02:35,933 --> 01:02:40,067 OKAY, YOU NEED TO MAKE A DECISION, OR I'M GONNA LEAVE. 1068 01:02:43,100 --> 01:02:45,300 IT'S VERY DIFFICULT TO CONSTANTLY 1069 01:02:45,300 --> 01:02:49,833 BE SUBMISSIVE TO EVERYTHING IN LIFE AND HELPLESS. 1070 01:02:49,833 --> 01:02:52,300 GET YOUR ASS ON HERE. 1071 01:02:52,300 --> 01:02:55,700 -DO YOU WANT THE HEAD UP? -I GUESS. 1072 01:02:55,700 --> 01:02:57,933 DO YOU WANT THE RAILING DOWN? 1073 01:02:57,933 --> 01:03:01,300 HOW DO YOU DO THIS AT HOME? I'M NOT THERE. 1074 01:03:01,300 --> 01:03:04,167 IT DOESN'T EVEN LOOK LIKE IT'S THE SAME THING AS AT HOME. 1075 01:03:04,167 --> 01:03:08,100 I'M SURE IT'S NOT THE EXACT SAME MODEL, NO, ERICA. 1076 01:03:08,100 --> 01:03:11,700 THIS IS WHY I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THIS. 1077 01:03:11,700 --> 01:03:15,067 THEN LET'S GO HOME. 1078 01:03:15,067 --> 01:03:16,967 YOU WANT TO GO HOME? 1079 01:03:16,967 --> 01:03:20,867 BUT DON'T EVER ASK ME TO DO ANYTHING ELSE, EVER. 1080 01:03:20,867 --> 01:03:23,533 I'M NOT COMING BACK HERE. 1081 01:03:23,533 --> 01:03:25,500 I'M DONE WITH THIS CRAP. 1082 01:03:25,500 --> 01:03:26,900 YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF. 1083 01:03:26,900 --> 01:03:30,567 GET UP AND GET OVER HERE. NOW. 1084 01:03:30,567 --> 01:03:31,700 ALL RIGHT. 1085 01:03:31,700 --> 01:03:34,067 CAN I HAVE MY FOOD, PLEASE? 1086 01:03:39,400 --> 01:03:41,867 HERE. 1087 01:03:41,867 --> 01:03:44,567 DO YOU HAVE ANOTHER DRINK? 1088 01:03:44,567 --> 01:03:47,233 GOOD BYE. I'M GONNA LEAVE. 1089 01:03:47,233 --> 01:03:50,067 Erica: OH, MY GOD. 1090 01:03:50,067 --> 01:03:51,767 I DON'T CARE. I DON'T [BLEEP] CARE! 1091 01:03:51,767 --> 01:03:53,967 I DIDN'T WANT TO COME HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE! 1092 01:03:53,967 --> 01:03:57,267 Molly: SEE YOU TOMORROW. 1093 01:03:57,267 --> 01:03:59,167 I'LL EAT [BLEEP] WHATEVER THE [BLEEP] I WANT, 1094 01:03:59,167 --> 01:04:01,500 AND JUST [BLEEP] DIE IN CALIFORNIA 1095 01:04:01,500 --> 01:04:04,867 IN MY [BLEEP] COMFORTABLE HOUSE... 1096 01:04:04,867 --> 01:04:06,433 WHERE I WANT TO BE. 1097 01:04:06,433 --> 01:04:08,567 I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE. 1098 01:04:08,567 --> 01:04:11,967 I WILL FIND A WAY TO GET BACK HOME TO CALIFORNIA. 1099 01:04:30,667 --> 01:04:34,533 IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE SEEN DR. NOW. 1100 01:04:34,533 --> 01:04:37,600 AND I'M REALLY NERVOUS TO GET ON THE SCALE. 1101 01:04:39,567 --> 01:04:41,367 I'VE HAD A ROUGH MONTH, 1102 01:04:41,367 --> 01:04:44,967 SO I FEEL LIKE MAYBE I'VE GAINED SOME WEIGHT 1103 01:04:44,967 --> 01:04:47,100 SINCE MY LAST WEIGH-IN. 1104 01:04:50,367 --> 01:04:52,233 PLUS, DR. NOW SAID 1105 01:04:52,233 --> 01:04:55,567 I'M GOING TO MEET MY PERSONAL CARE ASSISTANT, 1106 01:04:55,567 --> 01:04:59,200 WHO IS GONNA HELP TAKE CARE OF ME IN HOUSTON. 1107 01:04:59,200 --> 01:05:01,200 AND I DON'T REALLY LIKE MEETING NEW PEOPLE, 1108 01:05:01,200 --> 01:05:03,067 SO I'M NOT SURE ABOUT THAT. 1109 01:05:03,067 --> 01:05:06,433 SO, SHE DOES BEST WHEN SHE TURNS 1110 01:05:06,433 --> 01:05:10,067 AND KINDA GOES BOTH FEET AT THE SAME TIME. 1111 01:05:10,067 --> 01:05:12,133 Erica: I KNOW DR. NOW HAS EXPECTED ME 1112 01:05:12,133 --> 01:05:14,767 TO KEEP LOSING WEIGHT. 1113 01:05:14,767 --> 01:05:18,667 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH 1114 01:05:18,667 --> 01:05:21,167 OR WHAT HE'S GOING TO SAY IF I'VE GAINED. 1115 01:05:25,800 --> 01:05:27,767 I'M JUST HOPING HE FIGURES OUT 1116 01:05:27,767 --> 01:05:30,533 HOW TO GIVE ME SURGERY AND HELP ME. 1117 01:05:34,633 --> 01:05:36,767 -592. -OKAY. 1118 01:05:36,767 --> 01:05:39,733 Molly: THAT'S AN 18-POUND LOSS. 1119 01:05:39,733 --> 01:05:42,067 I WISH IT WAS MORE. [ CHUCKLES ] 1120 01:05:45,100 --> 01:05:47,633 OKAY. OW. 1121 01:05:47,633 --> 01:05:51,300 I'M OUT OF THE 600's. I JUST REALIZED THAT. 1122 01:05:51,300 --> 01:05:54,833 TOOK ME A MINUTE. [ LAUGHS ] 1123 01:05:58,067 --> 01:05:59,733 IT'S BEEN A VERY LONG TIME 1124 01:05:59,733 --> 01:06:03,600 SINCE I'VE WEIGHED LESS THAN 600 POUNDS. 1125 01:06:03,600 --> 01:06:06,333 BUT I'M DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF, 'CAUSE I WONDER, 1126 01:06:06,333 --> 01:06:09,500 IF I DIDN'T MAKE THOSE POOR EATING CHOICES, 1127 01:06:09,500 --> 01:06:12,500 HOW MUCH FARTHER I COULD'VE GOTTEN. 1128 01:06:12,500 --> 01:06:15,700 'CAUSE IF I JUST WOULD'VE DONE WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO, 1129 01:06:15,700 --> 01:06:21,500 I COULD'VE MADE SO MUCH MORE PROGRESS. 1130 01:06:21,500 --> 01:06:26,733 I DON'T KNOW WHY I ALWAYS SABOTAGE MYSELF. 1131 01:06:26,733 --> 01:06:29,800 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1132 01:06:29,800 --> 01:06:31,100 -HI, DR. NOW. -HEY. HOW YOU DOING? 1133 01:06:31,100 --> 01:06:34,333 HOW YOU DOING? SO, YOU HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT. 1134 01:06:34,333 --> 01:06:36,367 YOU ARE FINALLY MAKING PROGRESS. 1135 01:06:36,367 --> 01:06:38,100 AND I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR THAT. 1136 01:06:38,100 --> 01:06:40,833 BUT, UH, YOU SHOULD HAVE LOST A LITTLE BIT MORE, 1137 01:06:40,833 --> 01:06:44,167 BECAUSE IT TOOK HALF A YEAR TO DO IT. 1138 01:06:44,167 --> 01:06:47,367 SO ARE YOU GOING TO STICK TO YOUR DIET? 1139 01:06:47,367 --> 01:06:49,733 I'M JUST GONNA TRY REALLY HARD. 1140 01:06:49,733 --> 01:06:52,133 ARE YOU DOING YOUR OWN COOKING? 1141 01:06:52,133 --> 01:06:54,300 YOU EATING OUTSIDE, OR...? 1142 01:06:54,300 --> 01:06:56,967 -I DON'T KNOW. -DON'T LOOK AT ME. 1143 01:06:56,967 --> 01:06:58,433 -I DON'T KNOW. -DON'T LOOK AT HER. 1144 01:06:58,433 --> 01:07:02,400 SHE IS NOT GONNA BE PREDICTING OF WHAT YOU CAN DO. 1145 01:07:02,400 --> 01:07:04,100 I DON'T KNOW. 1146 01:07:04,100 --> 01:07:07,633 JUST TO KEEP WORKING ON IT. 1147 01:07:07,633 --> 01:07:09,400 ERICA HAS MADE SOME PROGRESS. 1148 01:07:09,400 --> 01:07:11,233 BUT SHE TOOK A LOT LONGER 1149 01:07:11,233 --> 01:07:14,300 TO GET IN THE PROGRAM THAN SHE SHOULD HAVE. 1150 01:07:14,300 --> 01:07:17,200 I THINK SHE'S READY TO BE HERE IN HOUSTON, 1151 01:07:17,200 --> 01:07:20,700 BUT I'M NOT CONVINCED THIS IS NOT TEMPORARY PROGRESS, 1152 01:07:20,700 --> 01:07:26,067 AND SOON SHE'LL FIND A REASON TO START OVEREATING AGAIN. 1153 01:07:26,067 --> 01:07:30,333 YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE OF PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY. 1154 01:07:30,333 --> 01:07:31,933 DING, DING, DING! 1155 01:07:31,933 --> 01:07:33,800 YOU'RE HOPING THAT EVERYTHING AROUND YOU HAPPENS, 1156 01:07:33,800 --> 01:07:37,433 AND MAGICALLY YOU'RE GONNA HAVE EVERYTHING CHANGE. 1157 01:07:37,433 --> 01:07:39,833 I WOULDN'T HAVE MADE THIS MOVE 1158 01:07:39,833 --> 01:07:41,933 IF I DIDN'T THINK I COULD DO IT. 1159 01:07:41,933 --> 01:07:45,700 BUT YOU SEEM LIKE YOU'RE HOPING SOMETHING OUTSIDE OF YOURSELF... 1160 01:07:45,700 --> 01:07:48,167 -...TO CONTROL THAT. -NO, I DON'T. 1161 01:07:48,167 --> 01:07:50,200 I'M VERY NERVOUS. AND I'M SCARED. 1162 01:07:50,200 --> 01:07:54,333 THAT'S ALL. I'M JUST -- I JUST GOT HERE. 1163 01:07:54,333 --> 01:07:57,767 BUT I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO. 1164 01:07:57,767 --> 01:07:59,600 I WANT HER TO UNDERSTAND 1165 01:07:59,600 --> 01:08:01,900 THE HARD PART IS NOT OVER YET, 1166 01:08:01,900 --> 01:08:05,567 AND SHE STILL HAS A LOT OF WORK TO DO. 1167 01:08:05,567 --> 01:08:09,267 I WANT YOU TO STICK TO THE DIET AND INCREASE YOUR ACTIVITY. 1168 01:08:09,267 --> 01:08:10,833 -OKAY? -OKAY. 1169 01:08:10,833 --> 01:08:13,600 I WANT YOU TO LOSE ANOTHER 25 POUNDS 1170 01:08:13,600 --> 01:08:14,933 OVER THE NEXT MONTH 1171 01:08:14,933 --> 01:08:17,767 AND SHOW ME THAT YOU CAN DO THIS. 1172 01:08:17,767 --> 01:08:20,133 THEN WE'RE GONNA SET YOU UP FOR AN ENDOSCOPY. 1173 01:08:20,133 --> 01:08:22,500 LOOK INSIDE OF YOUR STOMACH, SEE WHAT OPTIONS WE GOT, 1174 01:08:22,500 --> 01:08:25,567 FROM YOUR PREVIOUS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 1175 01:08:25,567 --> 01:08:27,200 OKAY. THANK YOU. 1176 01:08:27,200 --> 01:08:29,900 ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 1177 01:08:29,900 --> 01:08:34,400 ONE, TWO, THREE. 1178 01:08:34,400 --> 01:08:36,667 TALKING TO DR. NOW IS OKAY, 1179 01:08:36,667 --> 01:08:38,733 BUT HE'S VERY INTIMIDATING. 1180 01:08:41,300 --> 01:08:42,700 AND I DON'T THINK THE DOCTOR 1181 01:08:42,700 --> 01:08:44,767 REALLY THINKS I'M GOING TO KEEP DOING THIS. 1182 01:08:44,767 --> 01:08:47,867 YEAH. SIT. 1183 01:08:47,867 --> 01:08:49,333 OH, MY GOD. 1184 01:08:49,333 --> 01:08:53,500 SO I'LL TRY TO MAKE MORE PROGRESS, LIKE HE WANTS. 1185 01:08:53,500 --> 01:08:55,500 I'VE COME ALL THE WAY DOWN HERE TO DO THIS, 1186 01:08:55,500 --> 01:08:57,467 AND I CAN'T LOSE HIS HELP. 1187 01:08:57,467 --> 01:09:01,167 ONE, TWO, SEVEN. 1188 01:09:01,167 --> 01:09:04,600 IF I DO, I LITERALLY HAVE NO OTHER OPTIONS 1189 01:09:04,600 --> 01:09:07,133 TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1190 01:09:17,333 --> 01:09:21,100 TODAY MOLLY AND RYAN ARE GOING BACK HOME TO CALIFORNIA. 1191 01:09:23,067 --> 01:09:26,567 BUT THEY HELPED ME MOVE INTO MY APARTMENT. 1192 01:09:26,567 --> 01:09:30,400 Molly: 12 GRAMS OF PROTEIN. 80 CALORIES. 1193 01:09:30,400 --> 01:09:32,533 I WISH THEY WOULD STAY LONGER. 1194 01:09:32,533 --> 01:09:35,067 OKAY, ERICA. WE HAVE TO GO TO THE AIRPORT. 1195 01:09:35,067 --> 01:09:36,633 WHAT IF HE SAYS I'M HAVING SURGERY? 1196 01:09:36,633 --> 01:09:38,900 -ARE YOU COMING BACK? -OH, I DON'T KNOW. 1197 01:09:38,900 --> 01:09:41,100 YOU KNOW, I GOT A LOT GOING ON. 1198 01:09:41,100 --> 01:09:42,833 I THINK, IN A MONTH, 1199 01:09:42,833 --> 01:09:44,167 YOU'RE GONNA BE TELLING ME YOU LIKE IT, 1200 01:09:44,167 --> 01:09:45,667 AND YOU'RE HAPPY. 1201 01:09:45,667 --> 01:09:49,133 OKAY. I'LL SEE WHAT I CAN DO. 1202 01:09:49,133 --> 01:09:51,667 -THANK YOU. -OH, YOU'RE WELCOME. 1203 01:09:51,667 --> 01:09:53,133 -THANK YOU. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 1204 01:09:53,133 --> 01:09:55,467 IT'S BEEN SUCH A GREAT JOURNEY. 1205 01:09:55,467 --> 01:09:57,600 I'M SORRY FOR ALL THE SACRIFICES 1206 01:09:57,600 --> 01:10:00,233 THAT YOU'VE BOTH HAD TO MAKE TO DO THIS. 1207 01:10:00,233 --> 01:10:03,733 I DEEPLY, SINCERELY APPRECIATE IT. 1208 01:10:03,733 --> 01:10:05,633 -MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW. -SHOW US. 1209 01:10:05,633 --> 01:10:07,300 AND NO ONE ELSE WOULD DO IT FOR ME. 1210 01:10:07,300 --> 01:10:08,600 SO THANK YOU. 1211 01:10:08,600 --> 01:10:10,567 SHOW US... HOW MUCH YOU APPRECIATE IT. 1212 01:10:10,567 --> 01:10:12,267 AND I'M SORRY I'M A PAIN IN THE ASS. 1213 01:10:12,267 --> 01:10:15,167 ARE YOU GETTING WHAT I'M SAYING? 1214 01:10:15,167 --> 01:10:18,167 SHOW US... HOW MUCH YOU APPRECIATE IT. 1215 01:10:18,167 --> 01:10:20,967 I WILL DO WHAT I NEED TO DO, MOLLY. 1216 01:10:20,967 --> 01:10:23,033 PROMISE. 1217 01:10:23,033 --> 01:10:26,400 MOLLY WANTS ME TO KEEP SHOWING HER THAT I CAN DO THIS. 1218 01:10:26,400 --> 01:10:31,167 BUT IT JUST FEELS REALLY STRANGE BEING HERE. 1219 01:10:31,167 --> 01:10:33,600 GOODBYE, ERICA. 1220 01:10:33,600 --> 01:10:36,467 I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT MY ADDRESS IS. 1221 01:10:38,867 --> 01:10:41,067 I'M OVERWHELMED 1222 01:10:41,067 --> 01:10:44,333 BECAUSE I HAVE A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF ME. 1223 01:10:44,333 --> 01:10:49,333 VERY, VERY LONG, DIFFICULT ROAD. 1224 01:10:50,500 --> 01:10:53,567 AND I'M SCARED. 1225 01:10:53,567 --> 01:10:56,233 I HAVE TO DO THIS ALONE. 1226 01:10:56,233 --> 01:10:59,667 AND I'M VERY NERVOUS... 1227 01:10:59,667 --> 01:11:01,900 THAT I CAN'T DO IT ALONE. 1228 01:11:09,967 --> 01:11:12,100 ** 1229 01:11:30,700 --> 01:11:35,233 Dr. Nowzaradan: ERICA IS IN THE HOSPITAL TODAY FOR AN ENDOSCOPY. 1230 01:11:35,233 --> 01:11:38,400 I WANTED HER TO LOSE ANOTHER 25 POUNDS, 1231 01:11:38,400 --> 01:11:41,167 TO GET UNDER 567. 1232 01:11:41,167 --> 01:11:47,100 SO WE WEIGHED HER, AND SHE'S 574 POUNDS. 1233 01:11:47,100 --> 01:11:49,667 AN 18-POUND LOSS STILL SHOWS ME 1234 01:11:49,667 --> 01:11:51,700 THAT SHE'S MAKING PROGRESS. 1235 01:11:51,700 --> 01:11:56,067 SO I'M MOVING AHEAD WITH HER ENDOSCOPY. 1236 01:11:56,067 --> 01:11:59,800 ERICA NOT ONLY HAD A PREVIOUS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1237 01:11:59,800 --> 01:12:03,600 BUT SHE BLEW HER STAPLE LINE WHEN SHE WAS YOUNGER, 1238 01:12:03,600 --> 01:12:06,833 AND IT HAD TO BE REPAIRED. 1239 01:12:06,833 --> 01:12:10,767 SO THERE COULD BE SO MUCH SCAR TISSUE IN HER STOMACH, 1240 01:12:10,767 --> 01:12:14,333 NO OPERATION WOULD EVEN BE POSSIBLE FOR HER. 1241 01:12:17,067 --> 01:12:21,567 THE STOMACH STAPLING IS A VERY OLD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1242 01:12:21,567 --> 01:12:25,333 THE SHORT-TERM RESULT OF THIS OPERATION WAS VERY GOOD. 1243 01:12:25,333 --> 01:12:28,767 BUT THE FACT THAT SHE HAD IT DONE SO LONG AGO 1244 01:12:28,767 --> 01:12:30,900 AND IT HAD TO BE REPAIRED 1245 01:12:30,900 --> 01:12:33,767 CREATES A LOT OF ISSUES THAT COULD PREVENT US 1246 01:12:33,767 --> 01:12:37,067 FROM DOING ANOTHER PROCEDURE IN HER STOMACH. 1247 01:12:39,300 --> 01:12:42,067 ALL RIGHT. THERE'S A LOT OF DAMAGE IN HERE. 1248 01:12:42,067 --> 01:12:44,667 AND IT DOESN'T LOOK GOOD. 1249 01:12:44,667 --> 01:12:49,067 I CAN SEE A LOT OF STAPLES ARE STILL THERE. 1250 01:12:49,067 --> 01:12:52,733 AND THE SCAR TISSUE HAS FORMED AROUND THEM. 1251 01:12:52,733 --> 01:12:56,367 AND HER STOMACH IS DEFORMED FROM THE SURGERY. 1252 01:12:56,367 --> 01:12:59,833 OKAY, LET'S PULL THE CAMERA OUT. 1253 01:13:03,500 --> 01:13:07,733 ERICA HAS A LOT OF DAMAGE IN AND AROUND HER STOMACH. 1254 01:13:07,733 --> 01:13:10,067 AND NO PROCEDURE IS POSSIBLE. 1255 01:13:10,067 --> 01:13:13,067 BUT I MAY BE ABLE TO REMOVE THE STAPLES 1256 01:13:13,067 --> 01:13:16,567 AND DETERMINE WHAT WE CAN DO AT THAT POINT. 1257 01:13:16,567 --> 01:13:18,433 SHE'S REALLY WARM. 1258 01:13:18,433 --> 01:13:21,433 SHE'S HOT. FEVER. 1259 01:13:21,433 --> 01:13:24,100 LET ME SEE WHAT'S GOING ON WITH HER LEG. 1260 01:13:29,600 --> 01:13:32,933 ERICA HAS NOT BEEN TAKING CARE OF HERSELF. 1261 01:13:32,933 --> 01:13:34,767 SHE HAS CELLULITIS 1262 01:13:34,767 --> 01:13:38,567 THAT HAS CAUSED AN INFECTION IN HER LEG. 1263 01:13:38,567 --> 01:13:41,067 SO WE NEED TO KEEP HER IN THE HOSPITAL 1264 01:13:41,067 --> 01:13:43,933 AND START HER ON ANTIBIOTIC IMMEDIATELY 1265 01:13:43,933 --> 01:13:46,900 TO GET THIS UNDER CONTROL, 1266 01:13:46,900 --> 01:13:48,967 BECAUSE SHE'S NOT GOING TO SURVIVE 1267 01:13:48,967 --> 01:13:51,633 IF THIS INFECTION GETS ANY WORSE. 1268 01:14:00,700 --> 01:14:03,667 Erica: I CAME TO THE HOSPITAL FOR A SIMPLE PROCEDURE, 1269 01:14:03,667 --> 01:14:08,667 AND THEN I GOT STUCK HERE FOR A LOT LONGER THAN I WANTED. 1270 01:14:08,667 --> 01:14:10,433 I WAS UPSET, BUT DR. NOW SAID 1271 01:14:10,433 --> 01:14:12,900 MY CONDITION WAS PRETTY SERIOUS. 1272 01:14:12,900 --> 01:14:16,300 BUT TODAY, HE'S FINALLY GOING TO RELEASE ME FROM THE HOSPITAL. 1273 01:14:16,300 --> 01:14:20,467 AND I'M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 1274 01:14:20,467 --> 01:14:22,300 HELLO. 1275 01:14:22,300 --> 01:14:24,600 SO, I'VE GOT SOME GOOD NEWS FOR YOU. 1276 01:14:24,600 --> 01:14:26,367 WE'RE GONNA SEND YOU HOME. 1277 01:14:26,367 --> 01:14:28,300 I'M GONNA GIVE YOU SOME ANTIBIOTICS 1278 01:14:28,300 --> 01:14:30,233 FOR A FEW MORE DAYS. 1279 01:14:30,233 --> 01:14:32,300 AND THE HYGIENE OF THE SKIN 1280 01:14:32,300 --> 01:14:34,600 IS GONNA BE VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU. 1281 01:14:34,600 --> 01:14:36,733 -OKAY? -OKAY. 1282 01:14:36,733 --> 01:14:39,600 ERICA CAME TO THE HOSPITAL A FEW WEEKS AGO. 1283 01:14:39,600 --> 01:14:44,067 AND WE MANAGED TO GET HER INFECTION UNDER CONTROL. 1284 01:14:44,067 --> 01:14:46,700 BUT THEN I KEPT HER A LITTLE BIT LONGER 1285 01:14:46,700 --> 01:14:49,800 TO GET HER WEIGHT DOWN A LITTLE BIT MORE. 1286 01:14:49,800 --> 01:14:51,667 SO I'M GONNA CHECK YOUR WEIGHT TODAY. 1287 01:14:51,667 --> 01:14:53,767 AND WE'RE GONNA GET YOU GOING HOME, OKAY? 1288 01:14:53,767 --> 01:14:56,300 Erica: OKAY. 1289 01:14:58,500 --> 01:15:02,967 547. THAT'S GOOD. YOU'RE MAKING PROGRESS. 1290 01:15:02,967 --> 01:15:05,733 BUT YOU NEED TO LOSE ANOTHER 25 POUNDS 1291 01:15:05,733 --> 01:15:08,067 BY THE NEXT TIME I SEE YOU IN THE CLINIC. 1292 01:15:08,067 --> 01:15:09,333 OKAY. 1293 01:15:09,333 --> 01:15:13,233 BUT HERE IS THE BIG THING -- I WANT YOU TO GET MORE ACTIVE. 1294 01:15:13,233 --> 01:15:16,333 BECAUSE IF YOU HAVE SURGERY AND YOU GET A BLOOD CLOT 1295 01:15:16,333 --> 01:15:19,433 BECAUSE YOU WON'T GET UP, IT CAN KILL YOU. 1296 01:15:19,433 --> 01:15:21,733 SO GET MORE ACTIVE. 1297 01:15:21,733 --> 01:15:23,733 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT. 1298 01:15:23,733 --> 01:15:25,633 -I'LL SEE YOU LATER. -OKAY. 1299 01:15:25,633 --> 01:15:27,133 -ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU. 1300 01:15:27,133 --> 01:15:28,567 -MM-HMM. -THANK YOU. 1301 01:15:28,567 --> 01:15:31,133 OKAY? 1302 01:15:31,133 --> 01:15:32,967 Dr. Nowzaradan: ERICA IS MAKING PROGRESS, 1303 01:15:32,967 --> 01:15:36,533 BUT HER ATTITUDE CAN STILL BE VERY POOR. 1304 01:15:36,533 --> 01:15:39,300 AND THAT JUST MEANS THAT I NEED MORE EVIDENCE 1305 01:15:39,300 --> 01:15:42,900 THAT SHE'S NOT GOING TO FALL BACK INTO BAD HABITS 1306 01:15:42,900 --> 01:15:45,167 WHEN SHE GETS THE SURGERY. 1307 01:15:45,167 --> 01:15:47,200 ALL RIGHT, MISS WALL. IT'S TIME TO GO, MA'AM. 1308 01:15:47,200 --> 01:15:48,700 SO I'M SENDING HER HOME 1309 01:15:48,700 --> 01:15:53,067 TO SHOW ME THAT SHE CAN KEEP MAKING PROGRESS ON HER OWN. 1310 01:15:53,067 --> 01:15:56,467 AND IF SHE DOES, I'LL SCHEDULE HER FIRST SURGERY, 1311 01:15:56,467 --> 01:15:58,833 TO REMOVE ALL HER STOMACH STAPLES 1312 01:15:58,833 --> 01:16:01,767 AND REPAIR ALL THE DAMAGE AROUND THAT. 1313 01:16:01,767 --> 01:16:05,867 WE'RE GONNA HELP YOU SLIDE UP A LITTLE BIT, OKAY? 1314 01:16:05,867 --> 01:16:08,667 Erica: I'M JUST A LITTLE FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. 1315 01:16:08,667 --> 01:16:12,067 I'VE BEEN DOWN IN HOUSTON FOR A WHILE DOING EVERYTHING I CAN. 1316 01:16:12,067 --> 01:16:13,400 AND THE ONLY THING THAT'S HAPPENED 1317 01:16:13,400 --> 01:16:14,867 IS I GOT STUCK IN THE HOSPITAL. 1318 01:16:14,867 --> 01:16:16,833 ...TWO, THREE. 1319 01:16:16,833 --> 01:16:20,333 I STILL DON'T KNOW IF I'M GETTING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1320 01:16:20,333 --> 01:16:23,767 AND I KEEP HAVING TO PROVE MYSELF. 1321 01:16:23,767 --> 01:16:27,067 SO THIS ALL JUST FEELS LIKE A WASTE SO FAR. 1322 01:16:39,433 --> 01:16:41,100 SINCE I'VE BEEN IN TEXAS, 1323 01:16:41,100 --> 01:16:43,367 I HAVE NOT REALLY BEEN EATING VERY MUCH 1324 01:16:43,367 --> 01:16:46,933 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GO OVER THE CALORIE PERIMETER 1325 01:16:46,933 --> 01:16:51,967 THAT DR. NOW HAS SET FOR ME. 1326 01:16:51,967 --> 01:16:55,433 SO THERE'S REALLY NOT MUCH FOR ME TO EAT. 1327 01:16:59,367 --> 01:17:03,133 I'M REALLY HUNGRY ALL THE TIME. 1328 01:17:03,133 --> 01:17:05,933 BUT SINCE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL, I'M SCARED TO DEATH 1329 01:17:05,933 --> 01:17:10,067 BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING DR. NOW TOLD ME. 1330 01:17:12,300 --> 01:17:14,733 SUCCEEDING IN THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY 1331 01:17:14,733 --> 01:17:18,633 IS LITERALLY LIFE-OR-DEATH. 1332 01:17:18,633 --> 01:17:19,967 BUT IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE 1333 01:17:19,967 --> 01:17:23,200 I'M EVER GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS. 1334 01:17:23,200 --> 01:17:26,100 BECAUSE IT'S SCARY FOR ME. 1335 01:17:26,100 --> 01:17:28,300 AND THE ONLY REASON THAT I'M TAKING A WALK 1336 01:17:28,300 --> 01:17:32,067 IS BECAUSE DR. NOW TOLD ME ABOUT GETTING A BLOOD CLOT, 1337 01:17:32,067 --> 01:17:35,067 PULMONARY EMBOLISMS, AND ALL THIS STUFF 1338 01:17:35,067 --> 01:17:39,333 THAT COULD HAPPEN WITH SURGERY IF I DON'T MOVE, MOVE, MOVE. 1339 01:17:41,200 --> 01:17:44,200 I FEEL LIKE I DON'T HAVE MANY OPTIONS 1340 01:17:44,200 --> 01:17:48,700 BECAUSE THEY ALL COULD POSSIBLY KILL ME. 1341 01:17:48,700 --> 01:17:51,467 SO, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? 1342 01:17:51,467 --> 01:17:53,967 IT'S TOO OVERWHELMING. IT'S TOO DAUNTING. 1343 01:17:53,967 --> 01:17:56,900 IT'S TOO INTENSE. 1344 01:17:56,900 --> 01:17:59,633 I'M FEELING COMPLETELY HOPELESS RIGHT NOW. 1345 01:18:07,833 --> 01:18:10,067 ** 1346 01:18:16,400 --> 01:18:19,200 Erica: I'M ON MY WAY TO DR. NOW'S OFFICE. 1347 01:18:19,200 --> 01:18:22,067 AND GETTING TO AND FROM DR. NOW'S OFFICE 1348 01:18:22,067 --> 01:18:23,367 IS EXTREMELY PAINFUL. 1349 01:18:23,367 --> 01:18:25,233 I'M SITTING ON THE FLOORBOARD. 1350 01:18:25,233 --> 01:18:27,067 THIS IS NOT NORMAL. 1351 01:18:27,067 --> 01:18:30,233 NOTHING ABOUT THIS IS NORMAL. 1352 01:18:30,233 --> 01:18:33,467 I'M SUPPOSED TO BE LOSING 25 MORE POUNDS THIS MONTH 1353 01:18:33,467 --> 01:18:35,733 AND FIND OUT ABOUT MY SURGERY. 1354 01:18:38,267 --> 01:18:41,067 I'M STILL TRYING TO DO WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO. 1355 01:18:41,067 --> 01:18:45,367 BUT I NEVER KNOW WHAT THE SCALE'S GOING TO SAY. 1356 01:18:45,367 --> 01:18:47,233 ERICA WALL? 1357 01:18:47,233 --> 01:18:50,600 EVEN IF IT'S GONE DOWN THE LAST FEW TIMES, 1358 01:18:50,600 --> 01:18:53,067 I'M WAITING FOR WHEN THAT NUMBER GOES BACK UP AGAIN 1359 01:18:53,067 --> 01:18:56,300 AND I LOSE EVERYTHING. 1360 01:18:56,300 --> 01:19:00,267 SO I'M NERVOUS TO SEE IF I GOT UNDER 524 POUNDS, 1361 01:19:00,267 --> 01:19:02,800 LIKE HE WANTED ME TO. 1362 01:19:05,367 --> 01:19:07,967 [ LAUGHS ] 1363 01:19:07,967 --> 01:19:11,500 I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW GOOD I DID. 1364 01:19:11,500 --> 01:19:15,567 I LOST MORE THAN WHAT THE DOCTOR WANTED. 1365 01:19:15,567 --> 01:19:19,367 SO I'M VERY PROUD OF MYSELF RIGHT NOW. 1366 01:19:19,367 --> 01:19:20,867 -HEY, ERICA. -HI, DOC. 1367 01:19:20,867 --> 01:19:22,400 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 1368 01:19:22,400 --> 01:19:24,367 I'M FINE, DR. NOW. HOW ARE YOU? 1369 01:19:24,367 --> 01:19:27,600 I'M DOING OKAY. YOU'RE DOWN TO 521 POUNDS. 1370 01:19:27,600 --> 01:19:30,100 AND THAT'S GREAT. I'M PROUD OF YOU. 1371 01:19:30,100 --> 01:19:32,733 SO I HAVE SOME GOOD NEWS FOR YOU. 1372 01:19:32,733 --> 01:19:35,867 I'VE BEEN STUDYING YOUR ENDOSCOPY VIDEO. 1373 01:19:35,867 --> 01:19:39,200 AND I THINK I'VE FIGURED OUT HOW TO REMOVE YOUR STAPLES, 1374 01:19:39,200 --> 01:19:41,567 FIX THE DAMAGE FROM THAT SURGERY, 1375 01:19:41,567 --> 01:19:44,967 AND GIVE YOU WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ALL AT THE SAME TIME. 1376 01:19:44,967 --> 01:19:48,133 THAT WILL LEAVE YOU WITH A MINI GASTRIC BYPASS, 1377 01:19:48,133 --> 01:19:50,400 THAT WILL HELP YOU TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT. 1378 01:19:50,400 --> 01:19:52,967 SO I'M GONNA APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1379 01:19:52,967 --> 01:19:54,867 -OKAY? -OKAY. 1380 01:19:54,867 --> 01:19:58,200 ERICA HAS SHOWN ME THAT SHE'S WILLING TO TRY. 1381 01:19:58,200 --> 01:20:01,800 SO I'M WILLING TO DO ALL I CAN TO GIVE HER THE TOOLS 1382 01:20:01,800 --> 01:20:04,833 TO KEEP HER ON TRACK FOR THE LONG TERM. 1383 01:20:04,833 --> 01:20:09,100 THIS OPERATION IS GOING TO BE VERY DIFFICULT. 1384 01:20:09,100 --> 01:20:13,033 BUT I HAVE DETERMINED A PLAN THAT I THINK CAN BE SUCCESSFUL 1385 01:20:13,033 --> 01:20:15,400 AND IS WORTH ATTEMPTING SAFELY. 1386 01:20:15,400 --> 01:20:17,367 -I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH. -OKAY. 1387 01:20:17,367 --> 01:20:19,900 THANK YOU. 1388 01:20:22,767 --> 01:20:25,800 Erica: I'M SO HAPPY AND PROUD OF MYSELF. 1389 01:20:25,800 --> 01:20:28,767 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS FINALLY HAPPENING. 1390 01:20:34,233 --> 01:20:35,867 AS THE SURGERY DAY GETS CLOSE, 1391 01:20:35,867 --> 01:20:38,667 I'M GETTING MORE NERVOUS. 1392 01:20:38,667 --> 01:20:42,000 AND I'VE CONSIDERED BACKING OUT. 1393 01:20:42,000 --> 01:20:44,933 I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO DO THIS. 1394 01:20:44,933 --> 01:20:46,467 AND I'VE BEEN CALLING MY FAMILY 1395 01:20:46,467 --> 01:20:48,533 AND LEAVING THEM MESSAGES TO CALL ME, 1396 01:20:48,533 --> 01:20:49,933 BECAUSE I WANT TO ASK THEM 1397 01:20:49,933 --> 01:20:52,500 IF THEY'D COME TO HOUSTON TO TAKE ME HOME. 1398 01:20:52,900 --> 01:20:54,767 [ CELLPHONE VIBRATES ] 1399 01:20:54,767 --> 01:20:56,633 -Hey, Erica. -HI, JESSIE. 1400 01:20:56,633 --> 01:21:00,067 How are you feeling about getting surgery? 1401 01:21:00,067 --> 01:21:02,467 I'M REALLY, REALLY SCARED. 1402 01:21:02,467 --> 01:21:05,133 AND I'M CHICKENING OUT. 1403 01:21:05,133 --> 01:21:07,300 AND BACK AND FORTH. 1404 01:21:07,300 --> 01:21:09,200 Well, you shouldn't chicken out, 1405 01:21:09,200 --> 01:21:11,333 because Molly's coming Wednesday, 1406 01:21:11,333 --> 01:21:14,933 and I'm coming Thursday. 1407 01:21:14,933 --> 01:21:17,067 WAIT. WHAT? 1408 01:21:17,067 --> 01:21:19,167 ARE YOU JOKING RIGHT NOW? 1409 01:21:19,167 --> 01:21:22,933 No. 1410 01:21:22,933 --> 01:21:26,267 WELL, THIS MAKES ME VERY HAPPY. 1411 01:21:26,267 --> 01:21:28,567 I hope so. 1412 01:21:28,567 --> 01:21:30,267 You won't be alone. 1413 01:21:30,267 --> 01:21:32,233 You'll have two of your favorite girls 1414 01:21:32,233 --> 01:21:34,833 right there with you. 1415 01:21:34,833 --> 01:21:37,433 SHE TOLD ME SHE WASN'T COMING, JESSIE, 1416 01:21:37,433 --> 01:21:42,800 SO I'VE BEEN CRYING FOR LIKE 24 HOURS STRAIGHT. 1417 01:21:42,800 --> 01:21:44,533 Yeah, well, we figured out a way 1418 01:21:44,533 --> 01:21:47,967 so that she can come and I can come, too. 1419 01:21:47,967 --> 01:21:51,500 I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME. 1420 01:21:51,500 --> 01:21:53,933 I didn't want you to be alone. 1421 01:21:53,933 --> 01:21:57,533 I REALLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO BE. 1422 01:21:57,533 --> 01:22:00,067 No. You're not. 1423 01:22:01,867 --> 01:22:04,167 Well, I'm gonna go back to work. 1424 01:22:04,167 --> 01:22:05,467 OKAY. 1425 01:22:05,467 --> 01:22:06,700 THANK YOU FOR CALLING ME 1426 01:22:06,700 --> 01:22:09,533 AND LETTING ME KNOW THE GOOD NEWS. 1427 01:22:09,533 --> 01:22:11,233 Yes. Love you. 1428 01:22:11,233 --> 01:22:13,900 I LOVE YOU, TOO, JESSIE. THANK YOU. 1429 01:22:13,900 --> 01:22:15,767 IF THEY WEREN'T COMING, 1430 01:22:15,767 --> 01:22:19,200 I KNOW I'D CHICKEN OUT AND CANCEL MY SURGERY. 1431 01:22:19,200 --> 01:22:21,333 I LOVE MY ENTIRE FAMILY SO MUCH, 1432 01:22:21,333 --> 01:22:25,700 SO FOR THEM TO MAKE THE SACRIFICES AND SHOW UP, 1433 01:22:25,700 --> 01:22:27,933 IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. 1434 01:22:39,733 --> 01:22:41,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY WE'RE ATTEMPTING 1435 01:22:41,733 --> 01:22:44,967 TO DO A VERY BIG OPERATION ON ERICA 1436 01:22:44,967 --> 01:22:48,200 IN MULTIPLE STAGES. 1437 01:22:48,200 --> 01:22:50,500 FIRST, I'M GOING TO REMOVE THE STAPLES 1438 01:22:50,500 --> 01:22:51,933 THAT ARE IN HER STOMACH, 1439 01:22:51,933 --> 01:22:56,300 AND REPAIR THE DAMAGE THAT THE STAPLES DONE. 1440 01:22:56,300 --> 01:22:58,867 WITH HER PREVIOUS GASTRIC STAPLING, 1441 01:22:58,867 --> 01:23:00,833 WE MAY HAVE A LOT OF SCARRING TISSUE. 1442 01:23:00,833 --> 01:23:04,133 WE'RE GONNA SEE IF IT'S POSSIBLE TO DO A FULL BYPASS 1443 01:23:04,133 --> 01:23:06,433 OR DO A SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY. 1444 01:23:06,433 --> 01:23:09,267 WE CAN TURN THE ROOM LIGHT OFF. 1445 01:23:09,267 --> 01:23:12,067 BUT THERE ARE A LOT OF UNKNOWN FACTORS. 1446 01:23:12,067 --> 01:23:15,867 SO I HAVE TO TAKE EACH STAGE A STEP AT A TIME 1447 01:23:15,867 --> 01:23:20,267 AND SEE IF ANY OF THIS IS EVEN POSSIBLE. 1448 01:23:22,500 --> 01:23:25,900 Jessie: IT HAS BEEN REALLY DIFFICULT WAITING FOR NEWS, 1449 01:23:25,900 --> 01:23:29,133 BUT I AM SO HOPEFUL FOR THIS SURGERY, 1450 01:23:29,133 --> 01:23:32,167 BECAUSE SHE'LL BE ABLE TO ENJOY LIFE 1451 01:23:32,167 --> 01:23:35,667 AND DO THINGS WITH ME AND BE AROUND FOR THINGS. 1452 01:23:35,667 --> 01:23:39,700 Dr. Nowzaradan: OKAY. I'M REMOVING THE STAPLES NOW. 1453 01:23:39,700 --> 01:23:42,400 LAST COUPLES ONES. 1454 01:23:42,400 --> 01:23:47,267 NOW I'M RESHAPING THE STOMACH TO FIX THE DEFORMITY. 1455 01:23:47,267 --> 01:23:51,900 AND I'M GOING TO DO GASTRIC SLEEVE. 1456 01:23:51,900 --> 01:23:54,500 DURING GASTRIC-SLEEVE OPERATION, 1457 01:23:54,500 --> 01:23:58,100 WE REMOVE 70% TO 80% OF THE STOMACH, 1458 01:23:58,100 --> 01:24:02,067 AND WE LEAVE A LONG, SKINNY TUBE IN PLACE. 1459 01:24:02,067 --> 01:24:04,167 ALMOST DONE. 1460 01:24:04,167 --> 01:24:06,867 SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY WILL GIVE THE PATIENT 1461 01:24:06,867 --> 01:24:10,567 AN OPPORTUNITY TO BEGIN LOSING WEIGHT 1462 01:24:10,567 --> 01:24:14,867 BECAUSE THEY WILL FEEL FULL VERY QUICKLY AFTER EATING. 1463 01:24:14,867 --> 01:24:18,167 ALL RIGHT. ROOM LIGHT ON. 1464 01:24:18,167 --> 01:24:21,100 ALL RIGHT. ALL FINISHED. 1465 01:24:21,100 --> 01:24:24,800 ERICA'S SURGERY WENT WELL TODAY. 1466 01:24:24,800 --> 01:24:27,567 THIS IS GOING TO HELP ERICA TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT. 1467 01:24:27,567 --> 01:24:31,167 BUT THIS IS REALLY JUST A START OF HER JOURNEY. 1468 01:24:31,167 --> 01:24:33,233 SHE HAS A LONG ROAD AHEAD, 1469 01:24:33,233 --> 01:24:36,600 AND SHE'S GOING TO NEED A LOT OF HELP TO GET THERE. 1470 01:24:36,600 --> 01:24:38,900 BUT SHE'S BACK ON THE RIGHT TRACK. 1471 01:24:54,967 --> 01:24:56,900 Erica: IT'S BEEN ABOUT A MONTH SINCE MY SURGERY, 1472 01:24:56,900 --> 01:24:58,867 AND I'VE BEEN FEELING REALLY GOOD. 1473 01:24:58,867 --> 01:25:02,600 SO I'VE DECIDED I WANTED TO GO SOMEWHERE AND DO SOMETHING. 1474 01:25:02,600 --> 01:25:05,467 LOOK AT THAT! THERE'S A PYTHON! 1475 01:25:05,467 --> 01:25:07,300 A YEAR AGO, I WOULDN'T HAVE DREAMED 1476 01:25:07,300 --> 01:25:08,700 I COULD GO OUT AND DO THIS. 1477 01:25:08,700 --> 01:25:10,500 LET'S GO. MOVE IT ALONG. 1478 01:25:10,500 --> 01:25:13,200 LOOK IT. THEY'RE HUGE. 1479 01:25:13,200 --> 01:25:16,867 FOR ALMOST FIVE YEARS, I HARDLY WENT OUT IN PUBLIC. 1480 01:25:16,867 --> 01:25:21,533 AND I NEVER THOUGHT I'D GET THIS CHANCE AT LIFE AGAIN. 1481 01:25:21,533 --> 01:25:24,867 BUT I'VE LEARNED THAT I'M A LOT STRONGER THAN I KNEW. 1482 01:25:24,867 --> 01:25:27,500 AND I KNOW THERE'S A LOT I STILL HAVE TO FIGURE OUT, 1483 01:25:27,500 --> 01:25:30,133 AND IT'S NOT GOING TO BE EASY. 1484 01:25:30,133 --> 01:25:32,533 BUT I'M TRYING, AND I'M WILLING TO KEEP TRYING.